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just a little update before the tluc comes tomorrow. i'm so excited for that, number one. number two, i've had lots of revelations recently.
i've decided to become an advocate of change. as in, when you don't like something, change it. this seems obvious, but its really hard to do. but i've found that its for the best. i didn't like my school, so i changed. it wasn't easy, it was quite the opposite, but it turned out for the best. i hated my bank, so i switched banks and am now much happier. change is never easy, and i always used to HATE change. but it happens anyways, so you might as well embrace it for what its worth, and use it to your advantage. just some food for thought.
also, i legitamately have relationship issues. as in, i will never be able to commit to anyone ever. i watched a few shows on weddings a few days ago and seriously could not even fathom why people want to spend their lives together. it has recently come to my attention that someone who i work with MAY like me, and i cannot handle it. i have such skewed beliefs on relationships. i was cleaning the house today and came across my parents wedding invitations and newspaper announcements and literally sat there and cried with them in my lap. that did not help. neither does watching engaged and underage. but for real. so many issues inside my head.
out of all the things i don't understand in life, the biggest mystery is still myself
i've decided to become an advocate of change. as in, when you don't like something, change it. this seems obvious, but its really hard to do. but i've found that its for the best. i didn't like my school, so i changed. it wasn't easy, it was quite the opposite, but it turned out for the best. i hated my bank, so i switched banks and am now much happier. change is never easy, and i always used to HATE change. but it happens anyways, so you might as well embrace it for what its worth, and use it to your advantage. just some food for thought.
also, i legitamately have relationship issues. as in, i will never be able to commit to anyone ever. i watched a few shows on weddings a few days ago and seriously could not even fathom why people want to spend their lives together. it has recently come to my attention that someone who i work with MAY like me, and i cannot handle it. i have such skewed beliefs on relationships. i was cleaning the house today and came across my parents wedding invitations and newspaper announcements and literally sat there and cried with them in my lap. that did not help. neither does watching engaged and underage. but for real. so many issues inside my head.
out of all the things i don't understand in life, the biggest mystery is still myself