how do i deal?

[irisheyes8418]

so, whats up?  eh....is it wrong that i feel so left out of everyone's lives right now?  everyone is out partyin' it up and having fun.  am i that lame?  why aren't i ever invited?  i guess im not fun?  i wish i could answer my own questions, but i have no idea why the hell i always come last in everyones life.  you can say i don't all you want, but i know the truth.

this song is just how i feel right now....it's true too...because anything CAN happen but nothing ever does.  sounds strange...but it's true.  i dunno, like my last entry, this one is just as jumbled!

Everyday I wake up
To another day gone by
Nothing but the open road
And a never ending why
Anything can happen yeah
But nothing ever does
I try to change It's kind of strange
The same as it ever was But look at us

Chorus:How do I deal with you
How do I deal with me
When I Don't even know myself
Or what it is you want from me

How do I deal with us
How do I know what's real
When I don't even trust myself
Or what it is I feel
How do I deal

Every night in the dark I lie awake in bed
How am I supposed to dream
with all the static in my head
(Torn in all) torn in all (in all)
directions (directions)
And I pray for some relief
What can I do but feel the
weight I'm underneath
and grit my teeth