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They say writing is healthy but i'm not so sure if I agree with that statement. Or at least when it comes to the point where you want some honest criticism. I have to say it's best to get it from an anonymous source. I've come to realize if you ask for criticism from someone you know personally, they're either going to put it off or not understand anything you've written.
But i've also noticed I get to the point where I'm a moody emotional mess that doesn't deserve any friends. Yup, you were right Pyro, I don't deserve any friends. I take advantage of them and manipulate them and just hate them for no reason. I'm a horrible person who deserves to be empited of all their blood through the veins in their wrist. And then some.
I can feel my snarky comments and bitchiness but I have no desire to stop it, I'm pissed off and no one seems to care they're pushing all of my buttons. I wish I could find my hard reset button. At this point it would probably be best to just stop talking and shut the hell up. I know no one wants to put up with my attitude or anything anymore. It's just too dauntless.
I go ballistic over the smallest things and hold all my emotions in until I'm just a big ball of rage that can be set off at anytime. And I don't know what to do about it. I can tell i'm getting boring and depressed and emotional as the days go on. I'm not quite sure what to do about it.
This has been the worst break ever, and I think it shows. I wish Pyro hadn't even talked to me, I didn't unblock Kristen, and that I wasn't such an emotional time bomb. I really do deserve to be shot in the face, and here I am always telling other people they need to be, or else thinking it.
I can't believe I can't do anything right.
But i've also noticed I get to the point where I'm a moody emotional mess that doesn't deserve any friends. Yup, you were right Pyro, I don't deserve any friends. I take advantage of them and manipulate them and just hate them for no reason. I'm a horrible person who deserves to be empited of all their blood through the veins in their wrist. And then some.
I can feel my snarky comments and bitchiness but I have no desire to stop it, I'm pissed off and no one seems to care they're pushing all of my buttons. I wish I could find my hard reset button. At this point it would probably be best to just stop talking and shut the hell up. I know no one wants to put up with my attitude or anything anymore. It's just too dauntless.
I go ballistic over the smallest things and hold all my emotions in until I'm just a big ball of rage that can be set off at anytime. And I don't know what to do about it. I can tell i'm getting boring and depressed and emotional as the days go on. I'm not quite sure what to do about it.
This has been the worst break ever, and I think it shows. I wish Pyro hadn't even talked to me, I didn't unblock Kristen, and that I wasn't such an emotional time bomb. I really do deserve to be shot in the face, and here I am always telling other people they need to be, or else thinking it.
I can't believe I can't do anything right.