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[irishdollz]

Well its the 28th thats probly why i am in this mood its a hard annoying mood. 3 monthes ago today i lost the most importent person in my life. She was perfect - the exact person i want to be in everyway she was passionate and kind and stubborn and oh god how she loved her life. Her name was thelma theresa and she came into my life 5 christmas's ago the moment we saw each other it was love at first sight she was always telling me how i was the person she was most proud of and she wished all my cousins were like me. then my mom married her son on january 7th 2006 and 6 pm and i truely became her family and it was the proudest moment of my life to be attached to someone so wonderful but that day was also the worst day of my life but it was when she told me she was sick with terminal lung cancer. she was so brave and so strong right up till the end. i went to see her on the 27th and she had asked them to take her off all support except her pain medication - i just held her hand and told her how pround of her i was and how much i loved her. when i went back the next day she was still fighting and still going i thought for sure she would hold out till her birthday which was on july 3rd it was what she told the doctor. as i was walking to my car i got the urge to turn around but it was too late i met my mom in the hall and she was gone. a few days later at her funeral my aunt passed me a note that read ;
"My Dearest Stacey
We founded a special bond the moment we met and i have loved you like a granddaughter ever since. Thank you for the special times we had together.
Please were these ruby earrings and know that they are given with love. Always know i will be watching over you.
Love
Thelma (Nana)

She dictated the note to my aunt the day before she asked to be taken off life support.

I miss her more then life its self and i hope that my memory of her never fades a bit

peace