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yeah, yeah, yeah. i know, i've neglected you.
i should have updated about my trip to paris, london and west sussex. i should have told you all about how i loved being there and knew that i was having the trip i was meant to have, but how i still wished, on some small level, that mike had been there with me instead. i should have figured out how to upload the photos from my digital camera; i should have figured out how to work the digital camera in the first place.
i should have updated about danny and benji's visit with the band formerly known as michael flynn (currently known as slowrunner) and our subsequent rock star partying with jay, jonny, herbie and josh terry when they came to town with howie day.
i should have updated about the fact that mike and i have spoken once for a total of 5 minutes in the last 3 & 1/2 weeks and that he was so incredibly rude and cruel to me that i now doubt i'll ever speak to him again unless he initiates contact first.
i should have updated about the two dates for drinks that i have next week and how i'm a little nervous about getting back out there and going on my first two first dates since last december.
i should have updated about how i'm going to mexico over the labor day holiday with my friend kim and her boyfriend bryan, because i couldn't stand the thought of having to spend the holiday weekend in LA.
i should have done a lot of things, but i haven't and i didn't and i'm not going to. i just don't have the energy these days and i'm trying to get back to a place where i knew who i was in between all of the crying and the worrying and the fretting and the depression and the heartache over a relationship gone wrong and yet another LA social circle disappeared.
i've experienced paradise lost, now i'm looking for paradise regained.
i should have updated about my trip to paris, london and west sussex. i should have told you all about how i loved being there and knew that i was having the trip i was meant to have, but how i still wished, on some small level, that mike had been there with me instead. i should have figured out how to upload the photos from my digital camera; i should have figured out how to work the digital camera in the first place.
i should have updated about danny and benji's visit with the band formerly known as michael flynn (currently known as slowrunner) and our subsequent rock star partying with jay, jonny, herbie and josh terry when they came to town with howie day.
i should have updated about the fact that mike and i have spoken once for a total of 5 minutes in the last 3 & 1/2 weeks and that he was so incredibly rude and cruel to me that i now doubt i'll ever speak to him again unless he initiates contact first.
i should have updated about the two dates for drinks that i have next week and how i'm a little nervous about getting back out there and going on my first two first dates since last december.
i should have updated about how i'm going to mexico over the labor day holiday with my friend kim and her boyfriend bryan, because i couldn't stand the thought of having to spend the holiday weekend in LA.
i should have done a lot of things, but i haven't and i didn't and i'm not going to. i just don't have the energy these days and i'm trying to get back to a place where i knew who i was in between all of the crying and the worrying and the fretting and the depression and the heartache over a relationship gone wrong and yet another LA social circle disappeared.
i've experienced paradise lost, now i'm looking for paradise regained.