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mitch has been gone a week now. i'm hanging in there. i'm not doing too badly. and yesterday was my first full day all by myself with gabriel since my mom left on saturday. it was a little overwhelming, especially since he and i are both sick with colds at the moment. i ended up balling my eyes out last night but i'm ok now. me and mitch have been e-mailing and talking on yahoo messenger which has been good. he's in kuwait until the 24th, and then he heads up to iraq. they're basically sitting around doing nothing so he's been going to the gym a lot. i'd like to be able to go back to the gym too but i have to find someone who can watch gabriel first. i've lost most of the baby weight so i just need to tone everything up; i'm still a little jello-ey around my midsection and it bothers me. it's so weird when all your life you've been pretty content with your body and then all of a sudden, you feel like you don't even know it anymore. i don't like the way it looks and that's new for me. hopefully i can get it to the point where i'm happy with it again.