ugh
i just keep pushing my self farther and farther. and it's getting me no where. i'm MORE sick than i was last week and im in a worse position with a bunch of my friends. i dont like long weekends...idk why i just don't. like idk why im even upset right now but i am. i let stuff get to me...stuff i know will be better in a few days.
went prom dress shopping yesterday...yay. makes me sad tho...i have some work to do b4 prom. i did find a nice dress...but it's too early to buy anything right now. friday work was...work. i was pumped i didnt have to work yetseday morning. im finnnnnnaly working 12 hrs next week...woohoo!
other than that nt much has been up. this weekend has been pretty good...i'm going to look at dresses again today w/ my mom. when i mentioned to someone what i wnated to do tonight...in response i was told "its so effing cold meghan"...so we'll see what goes on tonight.
concerning my life...which u all wanna know...idk. im just letting fate happen i guess withe evrything. i dont need to be with someone...the majorty of the people iknow arent with anyone...i just need to concentrate on being 17. i have things to worry aobut...i cant sit here crying muyself to sleep anymore. whats mean to happen will and if it doenst...it wasnt menat to hapen. back in middle school when me and my friends wouldnt end up on the same "team" or even in high school when i ended up having no classes w/ my best friends...my mom would always tell me "absence makes the heart grow fonder." this has already proven true once this year...so mayb if i sotp being a controlling bicth...it'll happen again. like there is no point in forcing things...when u make someone do somthing or force somthing...it always ends badly. i have to chill out. end of story.
oh sorry to the people i call at 1am...or 2...or 3...
another quote lately has bothered me. "Never let something go that you can't go a day without thinking about" ok to tell u the truth...but maybe it's the ADD...but i think about a LOT of people every day. like sure u have your crushes...but are u telling me u go through the entire day only thinking aobut one perosn? idk after i saw the quote yesterday morning...i made a note to make a mental note when i thought about someone. you'd be surpriosed the weird ppl that cross your mind during the day. teachers...ppl u met once...your best friends...worse enemies....yah. agian tho...mayb it's just me.
so i got ready too late for 1045...so me and moll will b hitting up 12:15 mass kids. then hopefully bagel jays after...or mayb ZJ's to visit peesh? who knows
ugh im still really upset...urrrrr. oh well...everyting will work out..if it hasnt...it's not over yet.
peace out
went prom dress shopping yesterday...yay. makes me sad tho...i have some work to do b4 prom. i did find a nice dress...but it's too early to buy anything right now. friday work was...work. i was pumped i didnt have to work yetseday morning. im finnnnnnaly working 12 hrs next week...woohoo!
other than that nt much has been up. this weekend has been pretty good...i'm going to look at dresses again today w/ my mom. when i mentioned to someone what i wnated to do tonight...in response i was told "its so effing cold meghan"...so we'll see what goes on tonight.
concerning my life...which u all wanna know...idk. im just letting fate happen i guess withe evrything. i dont need to be with someone...the majorty of the people iknow arent with anyone...i just need to concentrate on being 17. i have things to worry aobut...i cant sit here crying muyself to sleep anymore. whats mean to happen will and if it doenst...it wasnt menat to hapen. back in middle school when me and my friends wouldnt end up on the same "team" or even in high school when i ended up having no classes w/ my best friends...my mom would always tell me "absence makes the heart grow fonder." this has already proven true once this year...so mayb if i sotp being a controlling bicth...it'll happen again. like there is no point in forcing things...when u make someone do somthing or force somthing...it always ends badly. i have to chill out. end of story.
oh sorry to the people i call at 1am...or 2...or 3...
another quote lately has bothered me. "Never let something go that you can't go a day without thinking about" ok to tell u the truth...but maybe it's the ADD...but i think about a LOT of people every day. like sure u have your crushes...but are u telling me u go through the entire day only thinking aobut one perosn? idk after i saw the quote yesterday morning...i made a note to make a mental note when i thought about someone. you'd be surpriosed the weird ppl that cross your mind during the day. teachers...ppl u met once...your best friends...worse enemies....yah. agian tho...mayb it's just me.
so i got ready too late for 1045...so me and moll will b hitting up 12:15 mass kids. then hopefully bagel jays after...or mayb ZJ's to visit peesh? who knows
ugh im still really upset...urrrrr. oh well...everyting will work out..if it hasnt...it's not over yet.
peace out