Another one bites the dust
So i ended things with Andrew on sunday.It was awkward as hell. Had to be done. He didnt interest me, a lot of his qaulties annoyed me and then there was just something about him that i picked up on that really unsettled me.
Onto Rehan! Rehan is an Indian man who i got to know through the fact he used to work in starbucks. He was also the reason i really got into going to starbucks big time last year. At the time we seemed to have a connection. I am attracted to him and can safley say he is very nice to look at. So i've kinda liked him since last September.
I am going away in 6 weeks and had pretty much given up all hope of ever getting to go out with Rehan until i ran into him randomly in the Aldi down the road from me. This re-ignited contact between us so we met up. So far soo good, except yesterday afternoon i got a feeling in my stomach. One of "I'm just not that into him", i decided to ignore it and meet up with anyway. The meeting was post karate so i looked a total state despite the fact i had spent ages getting all pretty before hand.
It was a bit surreal for me, to be going on a date with someone i had met not through friends, anyho. There was lot of a lack of planning involved. We wound up going to a nearby bar with live music to chat. Chatting is something that should NEVER be the main lesson of a first date, lesson learned! Also my plan of being sober was abandoned very quick too realizing the key role alcohol plays in the mating rituals of young people. Attempting to kiss a person who is little more than a stranger to you sober, well its just almost impossible.
We kissed and we cuddled and chatted awkwardly and i wont want to see him again. Probably because we had little in common and well i like two other people right now. I actually like these two people because they are them and not because the resemble dixon in anyway.
Speaking of Dixon, i still love him to bits. This whole dating thing is new to me. Normally i would go on one date with one person, hang out with them a couple of times then get into a very long and suffocating relationship. Fun times. Its a lot harder than i expected. Its harder this time than ever before because i am learning what i like and what i dont like.
There will never be another Robert Dixon. The man was just painfully perfect for me. He just had EVERYTHING and i wonder if i will ever find someone who made me feel as much as him.
So Rehan is gone but on Friday there is someone going out with us who i do like. I hope things can happen with us. Also the week after that i am going drinking with a guy called Mark.
Mark is a total slut, he has gotten around all my friends. I met Mark when i was 17 and going out with andy. There was a lot of flirting involved. He was going out with someone then too. Her name was helen. The double date went terrible and Andy wound up hitting it off with helen. The two of them had something a while later and now hate each other. So mark was always a bit of an odd topic for me. He has gotten close to my friend Milena so has joined us on nights out recently. I loathed his presence until i found he loved doctor who. I now totally have a thing for him.
Onto Rehan! Rehan is an Indian man who i got to know through the fact he used to work in starbucks. He was also the reason i really got into going to starbucks big time last year. At the time we seemed to have a connection. I am attracted to him and can safley say he is very nice to look at. So i've kinda liked him since last September.
I am going away in 6 weeks and had pretty much given up all hope of ever getting to go out with Rehan until i ran into him randomly in the Aldi down the road from me. This re-ignited contact between us so we met up. So far soo good, except yesterday afternoon i got a feeling in my stomach. One of "I'm just not that into him", i decided to ignore it and meet up with anyway. The meeting was post karate so i looked a total state despite the fact i had spent ages getting all pretty before hand.
It was a bit surreal for me, to be going on a date with someone i had met not through friends, anyho. There was lot of a lack of planning involved. We wound up going to a nearby bar with live music to chat. Chatting is something that should NEVER be the main lesson of a first date, lesson learned! Also my plan of being sober was abandoned very quick too realizing the key role alcohol plays in the mating rituals of young people. Attempting to kiss a person who is little more than a stranger to you sober, well its just almost impossible.
We kissed and we cuddled and chatted awkwardly and i wont want to see him again. Probably because we had little in common and well i like two other people right now. I actually like these two people because they are them and not because the resemble dixon in anyway.
Speaking of Dixon, i still love him to bits. This whole dating thing is new to me. Normally i would go on one date with one person, hang out with them a couple of times then get into a very long and suffocating relationship. Fun times. Its a lot harder than i expected. Its harder this time than ever before because i am learning what i like and what i dont like.
There will never be another Robert Dixon. The man was just painfully perfect for me. He just had EVERYTHING and i wonder if i will ever find someone who made me feel as much as him.
So Rehan is gone but on Friday there is someone going out with us who i do like. I hope things can happen with us. Also the week after that i am going drinking with a guy called Mark.
Mark is a total slut, he has gotten around all my friends. I met Mark when i was 17 and going out with andy. There was a lot of flirting involved. He was going out with someone then too. Her name was helen. The double date went terrible and Andy wound up hitting it off with helen. The two of them had something a while later and now hate each other. So mark was always a bit of an odd topic for me. He has gotten close to my friend Milena so has joined us on nights out recently. I loathed his presence until i found he loved doctor who. I now totally have a thing for him.