getting picked on and feeling lost
I realize I have been really grouchy and whiny the past couple of days. I blame part of it on the fact that I am a girl and I am naturally just like that. I still don`t think its right for me to get picked on and made fun of because I act like that. I understand that is how guys act towards my attitude but sometimes it just becomes to much and I just want to scream at all of them. I can only take so much. I guess I`ve also just been thinking alot about how freaking lazy I am and how much I really coud be accomplishing in my life. I see all these people that have been so close to me dying. Take for example this guy that my family had known for quite a while. He was the sweetest man you will ever meet in your life and his wife who died a couple years back was the strongest and funniest woman I have ever met.Well on Sunday I found out he had died. I just broke down. He was 92 years old but it still always hurts to lose someone who has touched your life the way he touched mine. Now he was a man who could die knowing he had accomplished something. I hate thinking that way.I want to be on my death bed knowing that I made a difference. I need to work on being a stronger person, not taking peoples bullshit anymore, and work on accomplishing things. Anyway, a big thanks goes out to Robert for at least trying to help me last night by grabbing thumpy`s balls. Peace out!