Stop that
Weird dreams this morning. I think I may have even had a religious experience; it scared me awake. I was talking to mom about going to play puttputt with my nieces, who are coming up this morning. Next thing I know we walk into a dark church sanctuary. Almost everything was made out of that dark, rich wood that just absorbs all light. It was so dark that I could barely see the crosses at the front. My mom, however, was closely examining some huge structure, asking me if I could see it better. From my position at a safer distance, I tried to encourage her to leave. Next thing I know the window begins to flash blinding white(heavenly?) light at a random intervals. Mom screams and races toward me and then I wake up with tingling limbs and a racing heart.
Also I think my mind and body need to be realigned. I keep having these odd sleep states where some part of me is aware of the conscious world...as in I can see my wall or bedding...but I can't move my body. And it's not as if I don't try and that's the real terrifying part. I struggle to move anything, arms, legs, fingers, toes, mouth, hell, even my tongue...but rarely do I get a response. It's as if the instinctual part of me is startled awake, but the rest is still in lockdown. Not explaining it well, but it's really freaky and I'd be most relieved if it would stop happening. The first time it happened was in highschool and I just associated it with a bad dream from which I forced myself awake. It has happened a few times just in the last couple of weeks. More than unsettling.
Am awaiting family's arrival and then hoping that the dealer can take my car and FIX IT! Or give me a new one.
Also I think my mind and body need to be realigned. I keep having these odd sleep states where some part of me is aware of the conscious world...as in I can see my wall or bedding...but I can't move my body. And it's not as if I don't try and that's the real terrifying part. I struggle to move anything, arms, legs, fingers, toes, mouth, hell, even my tongue...but rarely do I get a response. It's as if the instinctual part of me is startled awake, but the rest is still in lockdown. Not explaining it well, but it's really freaky and I'd be most relieved if it would stop happening. The first time it happened was in highschool and I just associated it with a bad dream from which I forced myself awake. It has happened a few times just in the last couple of weeks. More than unsettling.
Am awaiting family's arrival and then hoping that the dealer can take my car and FIX IT! Or give me a new one.