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I suppose it's that time again, time to spill what I will on the textual plane. All I've managed to do here is bitch bitch bitch and whine whine whine about how I wanted things to be different, about how I was ready for change. The good news and the bad news is, I think I got what I wanted.
I've learned lately that change, like with most thigns, can come when you ask for it but not exactly how you saw it. Beggars can't be choosers, right? I feel like a lot around me is changing right now, more than I'd like it to. There's been good of course, there's been a considerable amount of good that's come from this, and as for the bad I won't settle for the deal change is giving me. I'm not giving up on this, i'm not loosing this. I just need time, time for all this anger to go away, for all the residual madness to go away, but time is all but gone from me. All I can do is grit my teeth, bear down and work for what I really want.
I'm working my ass off to just be ok, and i'm sorry you have to be here with me.
I've learned lately that change, like with most thigns, can come when you ask for it but not exactly how you saw it. Beggars can't be choosers, right? I feel like a lot around me is changing right now, more than I'd like it to. There's been good of course, there's been a considerable amount of good that's come from this, and as for the bad I won't settle for the deal change is giving me. I'm not giving up on this, i'm not loosing this. I just need time, time for all this anger to go away, for all the residual madness to go away, but time is all but gone from me. All I can do is grit my teeth, bear down and work for what I really want.
I'm working my ass off to just be ok, and i'm sorry you have to be here with me.