scar tissue
why do people always pick at scars? i mean we know it hurts and will most likely bleed and yet it happens anyway...
why must i pick at this scab left on my heart, and what a dangerous place to bleed!
i feel so broken and scarred right now but here's the weird part there's nothing wrong... everything seems to be picture perfect but maybe that's what is wrong after all
i don't want things to appear to be going FINE.... i hate that word i wish it wasn't used... i don't want things to be FINE.. i want them to be:
wonderful, fantastic, amazing, great, fabulous, awesome, PERFECT..... not okay or fine or alright...... those words are my enemy but no one understands why.... why aren't those words okay to use? because they leave room for improvement and i don't want to have to improve anymore... when will it be good enough perfect enough?? when will i???
i have to go find a band-aid now... someone call the hospital i'm on my way....
<3 me
why must i pick at this scab left on my heart, and what a dangerous place to bleed!
i feel so broken and scarred right now but here's the weird part there's nothing wrong... everything seems to be picture perfect but maybe that's what is wrong after all
i don't want things to appear to be going FINE.... i hate that word i wish it wasn't used... i don't want things to be FINE.. i want them to be:
wonderful, fantastic, amazing, great, fabulous, awesome, PERFECT..... not okay or fine or alright...... those words are my enemy but no one understands why.... why aren't those words okay to use? because they leave room for improvement and i don't want to have to improve anymore... when will it be good enough perfect enough?? when will i???
i have to go find a band-aid now... someone call the hospital i'm on my way....
<3 me