split personality
so i started packing tonight to get ready to come home...
i have a final on monday, tuesday and thursday
amd i have a paper due on wednesday
not to mention a couple loose ends i have to tie up with scholarship stuff and work for next year
and then... then i come home for summer... 3 whole months of glorious summer
work and beach and no classes or tests or papers...
i started packing tonight
i'd worked on my paper all day and spent some time with my little sister and i was tired of working so i figured, i wouldn't have much time next week so i should probably start packing...
i took everything down off of the walls.. all my pictures and tickets and posters
it looks so sad and bare now, not like the cheerful home i had created for myself filled with memories and happiness... now it's just a blank white cold wall...
i am excited about coming home of course, to see all the wonderful people that i haven't seen in a very long time.
to spend time with my family, my friends, my boyfriend
but i will miss it here as well, i will miss my friends
is it possible to belong in two places, to have two homes?
i think that's what i have now, i belong at home because that was my first home, it's where my family is and all the friends that i've had for so long that they are my family
but here, here has become home as well, here is where i've come to hide from all my problems at home where i've made friends that have become my family because they are all i have when i'm here. they save me from the stress from classes and tests and obscene amounts of work. the first people i see when i get up and the last ones i see before i go to bed
i will miss being here just like i miss being at home
i can't believe my first year at college is already through, i've learned so much, changed so much, grown so much
but somehow... by some strech of the imagination i am still the same person i always was, just better, more comfortable with that person, even more of myself than i was before
this place has changed me for the better, helped me grow and to find my true self
i still have a lot of growing to do, but i trust God and the magic of this place to lead me forward
i am returning to conyers next week different than i was when i left it last august, but i hope it will welcome me back, just as i hope everyone who i left there will welcome me back as well...
perhaps i should sleep now though, there is a lot to be done tomorrow
i love you all
<3 me
i have a final on monday, tuesday and thursday
amd i have a paper due on wednesday
not to mention a couple loose ends i have to tie up with scholarship stuff and work for next year
and then... then i come home for summer... 3 whole months of glorious summer
work and beach and no classes or tests or papers...
i started packing tonight
i'd worked on my paper all day and spent some time with my little sister and i was tired of working so i figured, i wouldn't have much time next week so i should probably start packing...
i took everything down off of the walls.. all my pictures and tickets and posters
it looks so sad and bare now, not like the cheerful home i had created for myself filled with memories and happiness... now it's just a blank white cold wall...
i am excited about coming home of course, to see all the wonderful people that i haven't seen in a very long time.
to spend time with my family, my friends, my boyfriend
but i will miss it here as well, i will miss my friends
is it possible to belong in two places, to have two homes?
i think that's what i have now, i belong at home because that was my first home, it's where my family is and all the friends that i've had for so long that they are my family
but here, here has become home as well, here is where i've come to hide from all my problems at home where i've made friends that have become my family because they are all i have when i'm here. they save me from the stress from classes and tests and obscene amounts of work. the first people i see when i get up and the last ones i see before i go to bed
i will miss being here just like i miss being at home
i can't believe my first year at college is already through, i've learned so much, changed so much, grown so much
but somehow... by some strech of the imagination i am still the same person i always was, just better, more comfortable with that person, even more of myself than i was before
this place has changed me for the better, helped me grow and to find my true self
i still have a lot of growing to do, but i trust God and the magic of this place to lead me forward
i am returning to conyers next week different than i was when i left it last august, but i hope it will welcome me back, just as i hope everyone who i left there will welcome me back as well...
perhaps i should sleep now though, there is a lot to be done tomorrow
i love you all
<3 me