UUUuuuhhhhhhggg!
all i really want to do is cry... and cry... and cry.
i'm having a lot of issues with my boyfriend.
he's gotten high like 5 or 6 days out of the 7... I've told him I dont like the fact that he smokes so much but yesterday, I got sick of this. I told him I dont want a boyfriend who smokes... or does drugs for that matter. It was so hard. I've never had the balls to stand up for myself and tell a guy what I needed. I'm so used to not caring about what's best for myself and letting the guy do whatever and get away with it. I told him if he wanted to continue smoking that was fine-- but we couldn't be in a relationship other than being friends.
I know it's a big part of his life-- his friends do it-- it's like their thing and he does it frequently. Pot isn't the only thing that he does but the point is... it's the drugs in general.
I dont want to be tempted to do that... and I know if I was surrounded by people who did all those things, I probably would and I dont want to see my life go in that direction.
I've seen what drugs has done to my aunt and other friends and nothing good has come from it.
I told him that I dont want him to quit for me... it had to be for himself.
The worst part of it is that he's doing it cuz things suck for him right now. I told him I wasn't going to watch him smoke his problems away.
I'm not anyone to judge someone for dealing with their problems in a bad way cuz god knows how I used to deal with things and it was no better.. but I started thinking about myself; my future and I changed-- it's been hard, and I've slipped up but I've changed. I didnt do it for anyone but myself.
I dont want to pull him away from his friends or force him to do anything but I'd rather be friends with him if he's going to do that.
It hurt so much telling him this cuz I care about him... a lot and he's such a sweet heart. But for once, I just need to something for myself that will be good for me.
He tried justifying his actions by saying that he just needed it to get through this next week and a half but after that he'd stop and I told him no cuz what about the next time things go bad-- I don't want to have to go through this again. I told him he should talk to his friends or talk to me if he's feeling like crap-- not get high but he said that his friends are alway too high to care and that I'm the only one he can really talk to.... the thing is he doesnt though. He doesnt tell me when he's feeling like crap or when things go wrong.
I felt so bad doing this... and I don't ever want to do it again.
Part of me hopes he decides to not give it up yet cuz I can't handle this right now... I dont know how to be in a relationship and I'm not happy.
I dont freaking know what to do.
This is why staying single is so freaking easy.
i'm having a lot of issues with my boyfriend.
he's gotten high like 5 or 6 days out of the 7... I've told him I dont like the fact that he smokes so much but yesterday, I got sick of this. I told him I dont want a boyfriend who smokes... or does drugs for that matter. It was so hard. I've never had the balls to stand up for myself and tell a guy what I needed. I'm so used to not caring about what's best for myself and letting the guy do whatever and get away with it. I told him if he wanted to continue smoking that was fine-- but we couldn't be in a relationship other than being friends.
I know it's a big part of his life-- his friends do it-- it's like their thing and he does it frequently. Pot isn't the only thing that he does but the point is... it's the drugs in general.
I dont want to be tempted to do that... and I know if I was surrounded by people who did all those things, I probably would and I dont want to see my life go in that direction.
I've seen what drugs has done to my aunt and other friends and nothing good has come from it.
I told him that I dont want him to quit for me... it had to be for himself.
The worst part of it is that he's doing it cuz things suck for him right now. I told him I wasn't going to watch him smoke his problems away.
I'm not anyone to judge someone for dealing with their problems in a bad way cuz god knows how I used to deal with things and it was no better.. but I started thinking about myself; my future and I changed-- it's been hard, and I've slipped up but I've changed. I didnt do it for anyone but myself.
I dont want to pull him away from his friends or force him to do anything but I'd rather be friends with him if he's going to do that.
It hurt so much telling him this cuz I care about him... a lot and he's such a sweet heart. But for once, I just need to something for myself that will be good for me.
He tried justifying his actions by saying that he just needed it to get through this next week and a half but after that he'd stop and I told him no cuz what about the next time things go bad-- I don't want to have to go through this again. I told him he should talk to his friends or talk to me if he's feeling like crap-- not get high but he said that his friends are alway too high to care and that I'm the only one he can really talk to.... the thing is he doesnt though. He doesnt tell me when he's feeling like crap or when things go wrong.
I felt so bad doing this... and I don't ever want to do it again.
Part of me hopes he decides to not give it up yet cuz I can't handle this right now... I dont know how to be in a relationship and I'm not happy.
I dont freaking know what to do.
This is why staying single is so freaking easy.