Oct 29, 2010 16:07
I just received an email from someone who tried to make me feel guilty for making positive changes in my life. Such things have happened often in my life.Those who resist change make life challenging for those of us who embrace change. Growing things change. Growing people change. Life is that simple. The good news is there are more people in my life encouraging me to experience my changes and applauding how happy I am becoming than those trying to hold me back.
As soon as my Irish settles I will see that people accuse me often of what is true of themselves. It's happened all my life. Those who seek to put limitations on my growth resort to some strange attitudes and behaviors.
There was a time when I was young that I relied on chemicals to decide my moods. Chemical dependency doesn't allow a person to grow, for as soon as something feels painful, that person can take a drink or drug and not have to mature. Living sober has been an often painful experience as I set restrictions on my own behavior and conduct. I'm no less dependent than any other human, so I lean heavily on God. What shows is that I live my life the way I want to, not the way any other person decides.
I respect the rights of all others to live according to their own beliefs. I lose all respect for those who attempt to limit mine.I have wonderful beautiful boundaries today. They assure my personal happiness. No is the most important word in my vocabulary.
Yup, my Irish is up. It's a most wonderful part of me that has set me in the right direction often. Anger is a most positive emotion when we take the time to listen to it.
I earned my reputation. I'm a nice lady; don't piss me off! I walk away more easily than anyone I know.
In my youth my Injun would go on the warpath when my Irish was up. Now she just smiles, shakes her head and chuckles. My Injun has strength enough to be gentle. Those who mistake kindness for weakness are forced to deal with my Irish as my Injun just sits back and laughs.
Taking life or myself too seriously just never did work for me. I'm a sober alcoholic. We are a breed all our own. I make short business of drama as I age. I am in life simply for the joy of it all now. I love to laugh.