Let's Get it Started
So um, last night was sorta.. Anyhow, LSAT went really well, I think. :) Glad to have that done. The night began rough, to say the least, but we ended up having a good time. Drunkenness meant that I was 'loved'. Why do I fight to make this work? I don't want to keep fighting for things, I'm tired of damage control, of arguments and long-ass nights that aren't so good. Things are going to change or they're going to end. And preferably, they're going to improve. I want to be a better person and that's what Aaron is in my life for..to be my other half, to compliment and help me see what's good about me, and how to change what is damaging myself. Hopefully he takes the same approach to things, because I know that despite my issues, I'm also capable of helping him grow as a person too. We shouldn't work, but we can. I actually believe that's true, and I hope he does/wants it to be too. It just is especially hard when things aren't going well with Aaron, because then I worry something bad will happen because he doesn't feel like he owes it to me to be good. Kinda, sorta, basically sucks. But I trust him, and if we're together, good or bad going on, I should know he won't do anything to hurt me.
As for life otherwise, umm..ready for this week to be done. Ready for next weekend's AmEx Christmas party with Aaron which should be a lot of fun, and sorta ready for everything Christmas. I just want to be happy and healthy soon. My blood tests seem to have come back normal, but what does that mean? That they have no idea, as usual. I think I'm going to buy myself another piece of exercise equipment for the apartment. I can't always treadmill and bike isn't very effective, but this Body Row thing looks interesting..Hopefully. I need to go clothes shopping too, will make me feel better about myself. :) Such a girl thing to say, I know. But my bf has spent more than me on clothes lately, c'mon now.
*sigh* No worries, take things as they come, and life will get better. My entire month off will be wonderful for me. Time for law school apps, time for my graduation speech, and most importantly - time for me.
As for life otherwise, umm..ready for this week to be done. Ready for next weekend's AmEx Christmas party with Aaron which should be a lot of fun, and sorta ready for everything Christmas. I just want to be happy and healthy soon. My blood tests seem to have come back normal, but what does that mean? That they have no idea, as usual. I think I'm going to buy myself another piece of exercise equipment for the apartment. I can't always treadmill and bike isn't very effective, but this Body Row thing looks interesting..Hopefully. I need to go clothes shopping too, will make me feel better about myself. :) Such a girl thing to say, I know. But my bf has spent more than me on clothes lately, c'mon now.
*sigh* No worries, take things as they come, and life will get better. My entire month off will be wonderful for me. Time for law school apps, time for my graduation speech, and most importantly - time for me.