As much as things change they still stay the same
Well I thought since i am here in Virgina and far away from home I thought all the bad memories would go away. And now that I think about them they really aren't all that bad. I seem to have just let the little things that seemed big at the time run my life back then. I had a wonderful guy. I really did. He and his ex were good friends and I knew that. But she was trying to push me away from him and instead i pushed him away from me so i wouldn't get hurt. We were together for almost 3 yrs and now we have been broken up for 1yr 1/2.It hurts everyday and there seems to be nothing to help the pain go away. I am still in love with him and no matter what I can't seem to get that part of my heart back. What should I do. I also have been feeling really guilty about what things i might have said to this girl. Might have been trying to break us up but i should still have stuck to my love for him and trusted him when he said he would never leave me for her. Now we all have changed but some how we are still all linked togther. I still talk to david almost eveyday sometimes. I bought him that new harry potter book because i know what he likes.But should i try to talk to this girl who seemed to have wrecked my life and maybe i wrecked hers and try to fix things now that we are much diffrent and hopefuly mature? So now it seems that my heart aches to be with this one guy who i feel is my soul mate and I feel bad for this girl whose life seems to be going up and down a wineding road of uncertainty. Is it because of me? I wish i could go back but then i would feel that same...? Just wish things could change and not think about the drama filled people who were to jelouse and tried to take what they thought was thiers. I feel so much anger but yet at the same time i feel remourse for things i have said and done that were not of my normal character. Since High School i went from a laid back, quit,strong willed person to a person who partied and did things to fit in. I am now trying to change that. I am almost back to the person i am comfortable with and i am not worrying about what other people might think any more. And David i still love you, always have and always will.