End of a friendship
A sad event however necessary.....M**....someone who I did share good time's with....We met at a Support Group four years ago.....and became firm friends.....being fairly close and meeting most weeks....sharing telephone exchanges most days....
But as I changed...I felt that we had less and less in common....**M although a very good person ceased to inspire me....I changed but she didn't....and atmosphere gradualy descended into increasing negativity.....and familiarity gradualy bred contempt....
I have changed a lot the past 2/3 years...as I came out as Transgender....and decided that I had to change my life in various ways...not all Trans realted...my parents split...My Mum became seriously ill...my life and my mind ...and ways of living life...ways of coping....all changed a lot....and for the better I feel....as my old life wasn't a particularily happy place....I wasn't living in a way that could make me happy....
So as a result.....I've left certain people behind...including ...none more so than **M... We were just no longer good for each other...She didn't inspire me...I didn't inspire her....and we stimulated mutualy negative feelings...yet she was trying to maintain contact...while I felt bad in her company...and made excuses not to meet her...didn't return calls etc...
So after a series iof S.M.S this morning....we concluded that distance was best.... I still like her...but I don't want to share her company....I don't have that many friends....so to loose one isn't necessarily welcome....But it was no longer functioning. Strangely today she said that I was negative..yet she still tried to make the friendship function...but I had lost the will to keep it alive. Sadly I need progressive company where possible...people who will inspire me into believe that the impossible is possible....because there is so many obstacles in my life....that I feel a strong need for positive company...people who can encourage me and stimulate my belief in life..M** is somewhat conservative....when I was with her the obsatcles seemed larger.
I thank her for her support and kindness in the past....but her influence had become smothering....It's hard to tell a good person that you don't enjoy being with them...I don't wish to hurt anyone.
I wish her only the best as she has a heart of gold....but she is better off with someone else
Thanks M**..for the good times
But as I changed...I felt that we had less and less in common....**M although a very good person ceased to inspire me....I changed but she didn't....and atmosphere gradualy descended into increasing negativity.....and familiarity gradualy bred contempt....
I have changed a lot the past 2/3 years...as I came out as Transgender....and decided that I had to change my life in various ways...not all Trans realted...my parents split...My Mum became seriously ill...my life and my mind ...and ways of living life...ways of coping....all changed a lot....and for the better I feel....as my old life wasn't a particularily happy place....I wasn't living in a way that could make me happy....
So as a result.....I've left certain people behind...including ...none more so than **M... We were just no longer good for each other...She didn't inspire me...I didn't inspire her....and we stimulated mutualy negative feelings...yet she was trying to maintain contact...while I felt bad in her company...and made excuses not to meet her...didn't return calls etc...
So after a series iof S.M.S this morning....we concluded that distance was best.... I still like her...but I don't want to share her company....I don't have that many friends....so to loose one isn't necessarily welcome....But it was no longer functioning. Strangely today she said that I was negative..yet she still tried to make the friendship function...but I had lost the will to keep it alive. Sadly I need progressive company where possible...people who will inspire me into believe that the impossible is possible....because there is so many obstacles in my life....that I feel a strong need for positive company...people who can encourage me and stimulate my belief in life..M** is somewhat conservative....when I was with her the obsatcles seemed larger.
I thank her for her support and kindness in the past....but her influence had become smothering....It's hard to tell a good person that you don't enjoy being with them...I don't wish to hurt anyone.
I wish her only the best as she has a heart of gold....but she is better off with someone else
Thanks M**..for the good times