withering down to nothing
this sucks.
Its only supposed to take a week to get rid of these fuckers and theyre still in my system. Yesterday i woke up at 3am then 7am then again at 11am and thats after going to bed early. I'm starting to hate sleeping because thats when i have all the pain and the weird dreams and being terrified of being all alone. I started getting pains when i was at roberts last night and i started crying. i was so embarressed. I cant stand having people see me like this. i just want to be normal again.
This morning i woke up with not necessarily pain, but basically nauseas and sore. So i sat around for an hour trying to figure out if i should eat or take a pill or just wait until it went away. I took a shower and that was the first time a shower made me feel worse. I get out and pass out on my couch for an hour wake up and puke. I have no idea how im going to gain back all the weight i lost. I might have to go to the hospital just from being malnutritioned. i dont know what to do. I cant stand eating soup anymore. water is the only thing i can keep down. im scared you guys. totally scared....
Its only supposed to take a week to get rid of these fuckers and theyre still in my system. Yesterday i woke up at 3am then 7am then again at 11am and thats after going to bed early. I'm starting to hate sleeping because thats when i have all the pain and the weird dreams and being terrified of being all alone. I started getting pains when i was at roberts last night and i started crying. i was so embarressed. I cant stand having people see me like this. i just want to be normal again.
This morning i woke up with not necessarily pain, but basically nauseas and sore. So i sat around for an hour trying to figure out if i should eat or take a pill or just wait until it went away. I took a shower and that was the first time a shower made me feel worse. I get out and pass out on my couch for an hour wake up and puke. I have no idea how im going to gain back all the weight i lost. I might have to go to the hospital just from being malnutritioned. i dont know what to do. I cant stand eating soup anymore. water is the only thing i can keep down. im scared you guys. totally scared....