hmm
so, this is my life. I can walk around with a smile on my face. Thats all that counts right? I have removed the games off my computer, so I have so much more free time now. I figure I can use this time to start getting back in shape, every night while watching Adult swim do my whole push-up, sit-up, pull-up work out. get myself looking ok again. All my climbing buddies know there is no feeling like waking up the next morning after barely being able to get into your bed the night before, strangly enough I miss that feeling. ok, anyways my life is weird at the moment, yeah I wish things were different but I don't want to change things. Everything is on a path at the moment and well, everyone must live with it. No, Ash, I am not giving up I refuse to, but there are things that I need to find in myself. Its very hard for me too say this, but strangth and courage are things I must see in myself. the other is that I need to be patient.
I have three rings now, I like them, they all mean something to me. but anywaysits been a while since my last post and well, I know that this post makes almost no sense at all to most people who might read it.
well, I tried to start up an old friendship, I know I am gonna have to work on this one, cause it seems to have fallen through. but yeah I know I fucked up big time and yeah I acted like a total ass, I am sorry, thats all I know to say right now but hey I made the first move now I wait. I know this person may even skip this entry and not even see this, but hey I'm still sorry, I'll talk to you later maybe.
well, I am looking forward to a summer that I have in my mind. don't actually know how it will really turn out. all I have is "HOPE".(<-you know who you are)
~Spea meo in deo~
~McInnis~
I have three rings now, I like them, they all mean something to me. but anywaysits been a while since my last post and well, I know that this post makes almost no sense at all to most people who might read it.
well, I tried to start up an old friendship, I know I am gonna have to work on this one, cause it seems to have fallen through. but yeah I know I fucked up big time and yeah I acted like a total ass, I am sorry, thats all I know to say right now but hey I made the first move now I wait. I know this person may even skip this entry and not even see this, but hey I'm still sorry, I'll talk to you later maybe.
well, I am looking forward to a summer that I have in my mind. don't actually know how it will really turn out. all I have is "HOPE".(<-you know who you are)
~Spea meo in deo~
~McInnis~