eye infection spread...to my brain
So im not one of the healthiest people around...What the fuck is up with my immune system. I have a freaken eye infection. :( I fucken missed school again and i have this big fear that im not gonna freaken graduate. If i fuck up this year i would just be so distraught. Im so close to freedom, i really am.
Im so lost and confused about my love life. Am i really a dependent person? Do i just want to be constantly showered with love and compliments? I dont know. I really think its the latter one because theres times when i feel happy to be single and have no need for a relationship. Those are the times when im constantly flirting and getting positive reactions and actually feel good about myself. Then theres days like this where i look like shit, feel like shit, and havent made human contact with anyone but strangers, my family, and my doctor. Actually now that i think about it im really not lonely...You see what i mean...i change my mind during a fucken entry!! I'm so lost or just god damn moody. Who the fuck knows!?
Im prolly just gonna stay in this weekend. Itll be the first in centuries but the eye infection came at a good time...the last weekend before my Calculus AP test...i really need to study and get some work done. I hate when i say that and never get anything done. Recently i havent felt like doing anything...i really hate those times.
Benny has been trying to get me to go to the gym for about 2 weeks and i keep canceling. I will go one day you'll see! Ive been watching Buffalo '66 in Speech class. Its so fucken good i really like it. All i wanna do right now is hug my friends theyre all so fucken wonderful and i miss them so much. Peace to the world. Im going to have a guitar in my hands very soon....very soon....then theres not stoping me....muahahah
Im so lost and confused about my love life. Am i really a dependent person? Do i just want to be constantly showered with love and compliments? I dont know. I really think its the latter one because theres times when i feel happy to be single and have no need for a relationship. Those are the times when im constantly flirting and getting positive reactions and actually feel good about myself. Then theres days like this where i look like shit, feel like shit, and havent made human contact with anyone but strangers, my family, and my doctor. Actually now that i think about it im really not lonely...You see what i mean...i change my mind during a fucken entry!! I'm so lost or just god damn moody. Who the fuck knows!?
Im prolly just gonna stay in this weekend. Itll be the first in centuries but the eye infection came at a good time...the last weekend before my Calculus AP test...i really need to study and get some work done. I hate when i say that and never get anything done. Recently i havent felt like doing anything...i really hate those times.
Benny has been trying to get me to go to the gym for about 2 weeks and i keep canceling. I will go one day you'll see! Ive been watching Buffalo '66 in Speech class. Its so fucken good i really like it. All i wanna do right now is hug my friends theyre all so fucken wonderful and i miss them so much. Peace to the world. Im going to have a guitar in my hands very soon....very soon....then theres not stoping me....muahahah