i've decided
it's about that time for me to make a really.. really.. long post.. so i'm going to sit here and type until my fingers get sore.. maybe not that long, but you get my picture.
i went over a friend's house this evening to watch the American women skate for their National title and the 2 / 3 spots on their olympic team. it reminded me how i didn't get to go to my own nationals because i was sick. why did sasha feel well enough after the flu and i didn't? maybe this is why i need a therapist. anywho, i was mad about missing the shorts, but they gave enough recaps in the first hour that i didn't miss out on too much. for some reason, it wasn't Sasha, Emily, or even Kimmie's performance that sticks out in my mind. Stephanie Rosenthal reminded me of what the Olympics should be, or any other competition for that matter. FUN! I mean, her skating tonight is the reason why most of us continue to skate while not competing. I mean, there's so much pressure on "contenders" that the ones that skate in the first group are overlooked. I mean, why is it that I had to search high and low just to figure out her last name, when the top five are all over the American sites? i don't think that just because there are girls that aren't going to the Olympics that they should be overlooked so much. even listening to the commentary made me mad because everyone is going to have their fair share of spills, and hardly anyone is perfect at this sport.. you go too fast, you go too slow, you don't connect with the audience, you don't connect with the judges. i think they are the reason why some skaters are labelled 'overrated', and it's one of the basis for this new judging system.. so that the girls who were 8th last year have a chance to be 1st this year. i guess i'm preaching to the choir this time, but i'm leaving for france within the next few days, and it'll be fun with all my teammates there. i've been in the sport so long that it's nice to have people around that are still passionate about competing. GO RUSSIA!!
let's see, what else? oh yea, i spent some time with mama. we had dinner at Gavan v Hamovnikakh over in Gorky Park. i love it there because the food is sooo good and it's healthy too. i just had to boost my calories for the day because i didn't have any breakfast. there was dancing tonight and it was just a lot of fun. it would be our last dinner before i leave for the Euros, and it's going to be hard having her not be there in the stands cheering me on. but no doubt she'll be the first one i call for whatever happens while i'm there. she also talked to me about the divorce. it's hard waking up to an empty side of the bed, but what can i say? i still love him, honest to god, but i can't be married right now. i'm not even sure if i'll be dating soon or whatever. i know she just wants me to be happy, but i know moreso that she wants grandchildren someday, and being an only child i'm her only hope. at least i have the dogs to keep me company.
See you all in France,
I.
i went over a friend's house this evening to watch the American women skate for their National title and the 2 / 3 spots on their olympic team. it reminded me how i didn't get to go to my own nationals because i was sick. why did sasha feel well enough after the flu and i didn't? maybe this is why i need a therapist. anywho, i was mad about missing the shorts, but they gave enough recaps in the first hour that i didn't miss out on too much. for some reason, it wasn't Sasha, Emily, or even Kimmie's performance that sticks out in my mind. Stephanie Rosenthal reminded me of what the Olympics should be, or any other competition for that matter. FUN! I mean, her skating tonight is the reason why most of us continue to skate while not competing. I mean, there's so much pressure on "contenders" that the ones that skate in the first group are overlooked. I mean, why is it that I had to search high and low just to figure out her last name, when the top five are all over the American sites? i don't think that just because there are girls that aren't going to the Olympics that they should be overlooked so much. even listening to the commentary made me mad because everyone is going to have their fair share of spills, and hardly anyone is perfect at this sport.. you go too fast, you go too slow, you don't connect with the audience, you don't connect with the judges. i think they are the reason why some skaters are labelled 'overrated', and it's one of the basis for this new judging system.. so that the girls who were 8th last year have a chance to be 1st this year. i guess i'm preaching to the choir this time, but i'm leaving for france within the next few days, and it'll be fun with all my teammates there. i've been in the sport so long that it's nice to have people around that are still passionate about competing. GO RUSSIA!!
let's see, what else? oh yea, i spent some time with mama. we had dinner at Gavan v Hamovnikakh over in Gorky Park. i love it there because the food is sooo good and it's healthy too. i just had to boost my calories for the day because i didn't have any breakfast. there was dancing tonight and it was just a lot of fun. it would be our last dinner before i leave for the Euros, and it's going to be hard having her not be there in the stands cheering me on. but no doubt she'll be the first one i call for whatever happens while i'm there. she also talked to me about the divorce. it's hard waking up to an empty side of the bed, but what can i say? i still love him, honest to god, but i can't be married right now. i'm not even sure if i'll be dating soon or whatever. i know she just wants me to be happy, but i know moreso that she wants grandchildren someday, and being an only child i'm her only hope. at least i have the dogs to keep me company.
See you all in France,
I.