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I like the idea of being able to be intimate with someone without the fear of falling completely head over heels. That was the impetus of the mistake of my last relationship. Attachment. DEPENDANCY. I really should edit my past couple of entries. I feel drastically different in a matter of days. I have met some awesome friends, here and across the states. One of them could end up being my soulmate. Ive made that strong of a connection. I never thought i would have friends like these. Seriously. Im used to keeping trust at bay when it comes to friendships. liquidimage, A MALE!!!, got me off my ass so i could meet some of these lovely people, including the possible soulmate. And though i like to keep my private life personal, as you can see from my journal and its constant barrage of lyrics and photos only, i have met someone who shares alot of the same viewpoints relationship-wise with me. She wants to be close but keep it at a distance. Thats exactly what i need. No more dependancy. Heathersuxx has warmed me up, as have all my new friends. Hexgirl13, your_cure, Midwintereyes, x_noregrets_x, diablakitty, sbleisure, msvonburden, muffintop, goddessdestinee, akaliquidsnake, belou_moon, omnipotentsuds, Chikinsmak, frozenroze, thisheregiraffe, fragi1e_hal0, iathenaldyi, jambrr, poisonivy420, riot_grrl, anothersunnyday, pixiecore, throwingstardna, blue_grl0070, shadowstars, dis_o_bedience, tearswontfallx, drugmebeautiful, brazennymph0, hardgirl, rainbow_kittie, raven667, prefertheworst, kmbrown825, ..... GOOOOOOOD GREIF!!! Soooo many of you have taken the time to comment and console(sorry you were last KB, i havent heard from ya in awhile!!). I have the hardest time (or USED to) opening up to people, and online, you can only get so far. But i genuinely feel connections when you go out of your way to talk with me. I can feel that. Thank you. To everyone who comments in my journal or that ive met that i didnt include, i owe you a debt of gratitude, if only for the simple fact that i didnt take this place seriously AT ALL in the beginning. Now i appreciate every comment that i get. Ciao.