The week-end
* Got to hang out with Jules for the first time in such a very long time!! It was so good to see her again even for such short moment in time.
* I got a little bit G.I. Jane about being a homo and got a new "hair cut/buzz cut". I was socially crippled by this move for about 48 hours but I'm feeling better about it now. Yes, clippers were involved. And I know...my hair grows way fast so by the time you see me it will just be hair, nothing exciting.
*Hung out with Aleesia!! Who is probably my most favorite girlie evah and reminded me that there are folks in my life who do lots of loving family stuff that are not blood related :) and made me feel better
* Was depressed and slept A GRIP and was depressed and slept A GRIP
* Went to Greeley with Squee to hang out with Katie and LaVonne
which was so many wonderful and necessary things in my life involving white wine and being around the 2 most important relations of my life that made me feel very love-ed and safe.
Then went to my little brother's 20th b-day kegger. That is how much I love the child...that I willingly appeared at a kegger in N. Colorado. *shakes head at self* Good grief Charlie Brown. I was only able to stomach the party for a few brief moments. Although I was very proud of him when a few Chad's walked in the back door collars popped, and he looked mighty nervous & said "I didnt invite them"...so you know...it was cool.
After the kegger we stopped at Johnson's Corner (scary red-neck truck stop off the highway) where some cowboys were not too sure of us and then I panicked and forgot how to find the highway while we were speeding away from them in the Truck listening to Hedwig and the Angry Inch...or Bjork...I dont remember which.
Sometime during this drive I also asked Squee to go to queer prom with me like this: "So do you wanna go with me...? Or something..." further convincing me of my perpetual state of '13 yr old boy'. *again shakes head at self* But then I asked nicely and not like a jackass.
* Went to the Tat yesterday and bought 'The Lucifer Principle' and 'The Odd Girl Out' needed new reading material desperately and feel as though I can breathe again. *Sigh* And also checked out some S/M literature. Hawt.
* Felt significantly less depressed and slept less of A GRIP once I realized that I liked my hair this short and G.I. Jane is a bad-ass anyway, and that I have a lot of really supportive beautiful people in my life for a reason - called reciprocity and mutuality and that made me feel better too.
Sometimes it's just a hard thing to feel slowly disowned and it makes me sleepy (+ spring makes me a crazy person in a lot of significantly chartable ways). But I am getting less depress-o about it with time passing/adjusting to this horrid season I think. Cept for that goddamned Ani song about Christmas and being alone and not having to play along with the fam. That song is so sad...and I like it so much. But it's...soo...bad...
Well...now that I've thoroughly queered your friends page up I think I'll go back to work. Mahalo
* I got a little bit G.I. Jane about being a homo and got a new "hair cut/buzz cut". I was socially crippled by this move for about 48 hours but I'm feeling better about it now. Yes, clippers were involved. And I know...my hair grows way fast so by the time you see me it will just be hair, nothing exciting.
*Hung out with Aleesia!! Who is probably my most favorite girlie evah and reminded me that there are folks in my life who do lots of loving family stuff that are not blood related :) and made me feel better
* Was depressed and slept A GRIP and was depressed and slept A GRIP
* Went to Greeley with Squee to hang out with Katie and LaVonne
which was so many wonderful and necessary things in my life involving white wine and being around the 2 most important relations of my life that made me feel very love-ed and safe.
Then went to my little brother's 20th b-day kegger. That is how much I love the child...that I willingly appeared at a kegger in N. Colorado. *shakes head at self* Good grief Charlie Brown. I was only able to stomach the party for a few brief moments. Although I was very proud of him when a few Chad's walked in the back door collars popped, and he looked mighty nervous & said "I didnt invite them"...so you know...it was cool.
After the kegger we stopped at Johnson's Corner (scary red-neck truck stop off the highway) where some cowboys were not too sure of us and then I panicked and forgot how to find the highway while we were speeding away from them in the Truck listening to Hedwig and the Angry Inch...or Bjork...I dont remember which.
Sometime during this drive I also asked Squee to go to queer prom with me like this: "So do you wanna go with me...? Or something..." further convincing me of my perpetual state of '13 yr old boy'. *again shakes head at self* But then I asked nicely and not like a jackass.
* Went to the Tat yesterday and bought 'The Lucifer Principle' and 'The Odd Girl Out' needed new reading material desperately and feel as though I can breathe again. *Sigh* And also checked out some S/M literature. Hawt.
* Felt significantly less depressed and slept less of A GRIP once I realized that I liked my hair this short and G.I. Jane is a bad-ass anyway, and that I have a lot of really supportive beautiful people in my life for a reason - called reciprocity and mutuality and that made me feel better too.
Sometimes it's just a hard thing to feel slowly disowned and it makes me sleepy (+ spring makes me a crazy person in a lot of significantly chartable ways). But I am getting less depress-o about it with time passing/adjusting to this horrid season I think. Cept for that goddamned Ani song about Christmas and being alone and not having to play along with the fam. That song is so sad...and I like it so much. But it's...soo...bad...
Well...now that I've thoroughly queered your friends page up I think I'll go back to work. Mahalo