Diamond Riches and Caviar Dreams
Yeah so i dont even know if I spelt that right but whatever. So today was alright I think that i am slowly but surely coming out of my depression but it still lingers above me. And now I found out that saturday wit Hollis and all them got changed to friday. So I cant go which means that I..... will miss all the fun! LOL. But oh well there will be other times to kick it. I talked to Luci the other nite. I guess she had read my journal. IMy intention was not to make her feel bad but I think that it was pretty much just to vent. I know that she is prolly worried about me but this is something that I cant share or depend on her to comfort me with. I dunno and now i feel the way that she felt when Melissa and I became friends i see where she is coming from with the whole "MY best friend thing" but I stick to the quote that is on my friends page. And I know that Melissa is one individual world to me as is Luci and the things that i look towards in those specific friendships can only be found in that one person. So i cant be selfish and be jealous of the friendship that her and samantha share but yet I still find that I am but I guess I can negotiate with the idea of having other traits for a "Best Friend" relationship than that of Samantha. And I can also say that AT LEAST she is not "Best Friends" with Marisa Castro. LOL!
But yeah last nite I went to dinner with Sonya and it was good to be in her company again. I think that she might start a live journal which would be really funny since I cant really see her as a person that would have one online at least. But whatever.
Then today i splurged! Instead of getting a steering wheel cover like i intended to at the mall I ended up buying a $83 purse! Now some of you may think that thats a bit ridiculous but.... it's a cute bag. It's by Gwen Stefani it's pretty big too. But what I really need to do is buy some shoes. DAMN I dont think that I will ever be able to save up for a car.
I think that i should call people tonite because i have been way too secluded these last couple of days i dunno a part of me really wants to call Frankie but just the memory of him and his gurl all kissin keeps me from doing what my heart wants. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I wish that I could just find a guy that I really like and have a relationship before I find myself leaving for college. But like always I want something that I cant have so I might as well just settle for what is possible. Loneliness. (God I hope not)
Oh can I just say how much I think that I have a crush on one of the waiters at my work. His name is Art but the only thing is, is he's engaged. Which makes sense because he's 27 or 28 and gorgeous! He has one brown eye and the other like a hazel green which is totally sexy. And he teaches gymanastics at the Randolph center. So u know tha moves that he could prolly do! ;p LOL But that is just my fantasy as of now. And I need to find a second job even though I really dont want to but I guess I will have to since I want more than my parents can afford.
But until the next ranting of yours truly.....
But yeah last nite I went to dinner with Sonya and it was good to be in her company again. I think that she might start a live journal which would be really funny since I cant really see her as a person that would have one online at least. But whatever.
Then today i splurged! Instead of getting a steering wheel cover like i intended to at the mall I ended up buying a $83 purse! Now some of you may think that thats a bit ridiculous but.... it's a cute bag. It's by Gwen Stefani it's pretty big too. But what I really need to do is buy some shoes. DAMN I dont think that I will ever be able to save up for a car.
I think that i should call people tonite because i have been way too secluded these last couple of days i dunno a part of me really wants to call Frankie but just the memory of him and his gurl all kissin keeps me from doing what my heart wants. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I wish that I could just find a guy that I really like and have a relationship before I find myself leaving for college. But like always I want something that I cant have so I might as well just settle for what is possible. Loneliness. (God I hope not)
Oh can I just say how much I think that I have a crush on one of the waiters at my work. His name is Art but the only thing is, is he's engaged. Which makes sense because he's 27 or 28 and gorgeous! He has one brown eye and the other like a hazel green which is totally sexy. And he teaches gymanastics at the Randolph center. So u know tha moves that he could prolly do! ;p LOL But that is just my fantasy as of now. And I need to find a second job even though I really dont want to but I guess I will have to since I want more than my parents can afford.
But until the next ranting of yours truly.....