What the F!!!!!!!!

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So I havent written in a LONG ASS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And mostly because of the fact that I no longer have internet at my house. But just to give a brief overview of what has been goin on this is pretty much it........ so the past couple of weeks I have been on this emotional rollercoaster that consists of mostly people at Salpointe who choose to make shit complicated when it need not be so hard. I know that certain loyalties should lie to those that I have known longer than other yet when one of my "friends" blantently lies to the face of a person that I see as a good guy I just cant stand back and let him make a fool out of himself especially since he is about to fall hard for this person that he thinks he knows everything about. But in the same respect this person has never acted so shady. Though there was that one influence sophmore year I let it go and looked at it as a bad choice of judgement. But now I dont know if I should be labeled a backstabber or someone that just wont put up wit the bullshit. I know that there is tons that need to be said and if a relationship that is right comes out of all this chaos then great but just dont break any hearts in the process. I dont want our friendship to be altered in any type of way but know that I will say what is on my mind to whoever and whenever I want and the fact that I somewhat feel bad for the actions that I have takin so far should stand out because with any onther given person I would have already walked away and said fuck this and not given a damn but I know what it's like to be utterly confused so once again I wanna look past all this drama and continue our friendship. But just dont think that this whole triangle didnt affect everyone in some sort of way cus it did and if I am out of line then so be it but at least come to me with what you think that I did and not just have this whole ordeal be "hear say"
So now that I have fumed about that I think that I should say something about this guy that I have I guess you could say started "something" wit. He is a junior and i am somewhat having issues with that. We both decided that a relationship is in the future but not quite yet.
Homecoming is also coming up and I havent decided if i am going to dance or not but I know that the girl that is doing it wants me to be in it but all this work has seriously got me stressin and I dunno if I will be able to do all the things that I want to my senior year.
But the bell is about to ring and I have to go and find ....... yeah so talk to yall later.