I'm debating on whether or not i should leave brownsville and come to houston for college... or should I just stay at brownsville ... I probably should i dont know what to do
whichever you chose should be thhe one you feel more comfortable with. from what i remember, youve always wanted to leave to houston, why the change of heart or doubt?
I 'm in love with Jo - jo thats why and when I'm away from him i just miss him so much.... I love Jo jo more now than I ever had before... and its just really hard for me...so honestly... it is a change of heart
You know ed I'm still confused on how to use this.. I know i post my entrys wrong.. and that bother s me.... Ed, you know, it bugs me how you talk down to me...ANd thats something that i ve always wanted to say..but i m writing it down cause so much easier that way.. for me anyhow... and i dont think i deserve that kind of treatment... and I know you think less of me... you think im a slut or whatever but i promise you I'm not.. and just because I didn't go to your highschool that shouldn't downgrade me as a friend... because i was your friend prior to you going to that school... this is how I feel and I know im going to affend .. but i feel like if you know how i feel.. maybe it can change the weirdness i feel when Im around you... I know this is something that needs to be out in the open.And I'm sorry if i do affend you... I truly dont mean to... You're really important to me as a friend.. I hope you see eye to eye with me on that.....Im sorry ed
i cant believe you feel this way about me. im extremely sorry that you feel that way but the truth is that i dont see you any lower than me. i never have. i certainly dont consider you a slut, and i dont know where you got that idea nena, that argument we had in the past is in the past. im crying not because you feel this way but becuase i fear you'll never stop thinking that way of me. if i ever give you advice it is because i love you and im trying to tell you how i feel as the friend that i am to you, i dont mean it to be comanding in any way. and me going to my hs does not make me any better than you, when have i ever insinuated that, well if i ever did im very sorry. i dont want awkwardness to be between us, i want our friendship to last forver and i want you to forgive me for anything wrong that i have done. i dont know what i need to do to change, i just want things to be the way they should be, the way they were when we first met. youre too good of a friend to loose for something like this and i want to change it. please
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I'm really sorry edna for making you cry now I'm crying... and I forgive you ed... and the fault was mine... and always has been... I 'v e made a lot of wrong choices and I'm sure you know all of them... and if it hadn't been for them... we would be very close like we once were..
ANd I hate that... we're close but not like we once were.. before I had said anything .... I wish i could take it back... I wish that i hadn't told you because I felt so close to you before...and now i feel like the only one who's truly there for me is jo jo... The fault is mine edna... and I understand if you dont want to talk to someone like me. I feel like if i ruin everything .And I genuinely do feel sorry edna.
you didnt ruin anything nen, i'll be happy to put this in the past,and its not your fault, its a mutual thing. making mistakes is ok if you grown from them and you have, youre not a bad person and i never have seen you as one like that. i love you. i do want to keep talking to you, i need you in my life, yooure like my family. you havent ruined anything, i want to know that wee can still be honest to each other about everything. im happy you have jo jo in your life, and happy youre in love. please keep being my friend. above all what has made this hard for us is being apart but we can surpass that no matter whhere we are.
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ANd I hate that... we're close but not like we once were.. before I had said anything .... I wish i could take it back... I wish that i hadn't told you because I felt so close to you before...and now i feel like the only one who's truly there for me is jo jo...
The fault is mine edna... and I understand if you dont want to talk to someone like me. I feel like if i ruin everything .And I genuinely do feel sorry edna.
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