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I spent the whole day (if not the whole weekend, almost) with my friends. Honestly, I don't know where I'd be without all of them. It's frightening that everybody is going away to college, because I I depend on others so much. Now that I'm back here without anybody, I notice just how much I really need all of them. I've been honestly happy for the first time in... god, months. My mind wasn't even on all the bullshit that's been going on.
How, though, am I going to hold up when we're grown? As tough as I want to be, I'm not. I need people. And the one's that I trust the most are either far away or leaving me, in one way or the other. I'm going to die in college (real college, as in when I move up to Bard). That, or I need to bring somebody with me. And who am I going to bring? I know that I'm a selfish person, but after knowing all these people for years, I can't imagine living without them.
How, though, am I going to hold up when we're grown? As tough as I want to be, I'm not. I need people. And the one's that I trust the most are either far away or leaving me, in one way or the other. I'm going to die in college (real college, as in when I move up to Bard). That, or I need to bring somebody with me. And who am I going to bring? I know that I'm a selfish person, but after knowing all these people for years, I can't imagine living without them.