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Last night while laying in bed, I had a few random thoughts....
Random Thought 1: When did christmas become all about money? I am a christmas fiend, but this year I've turned into scrooge. I don't like christmas, I don't want christmas to come, and I can't afford to buy any gifts, literally. Where's my christmas spirit?
Random Thought 2: Christmas is supposedly the time of year where everyone is the happiest and love is in the air and all that hopeless romantic shit. Well, those people lie! LOVE is not in the air.
Random Thought 3: There is this guy in my life, who keeps popping up. He claims he likes me, but I don't feel it. I want different things then he wants and I won't back down. I WILL NOT get hurt again! I really just want to feel what others feel. Be able to walk down the street holding hands with someone that I have a connection with. Be able to have emotional conversations and have him support me. I want a best friend in him and know that if I were to be in trouble I'd always have a place to go. Apparently that is too hard to recieve. And I'm going to wait for it, because once I get it, it will be like magic.
I want someone to hold me, kiss my head, and run their fingers through my hair. (When it's straight) I want to go to bed at night with his arm around me and feel protected by him being there. I want to wrestle and play around and make him feel bad because he accidentally hurt me. I want to have laughter fits in which we act so stupid and immature, but it's funny. But what I want most is trust and faith in each other.
If I could ask for one thing for christmas, that is what I'd want....
I'm suffering from the Monday Blues!
Random Thought 1: When did christmas become all about money? I am a christmas fiend, but this year I've turned into scrooge. I don't like christmas, I don't want christmas to come, and I can't afford to buy any gifts, literally. Where's my christmas spirit?
Random Thought 2: Christmas is supposedly the time of year where everyone is the happiest and love is in the air and all that hopeless romantic shit. Well, those people lie! LOVE is not in the air.
Random Thought 3: There is this guy in my life, who keeps popping up. He claims he likes me, but I don't feel it. I want different things then he wants and I won't back down. I WILL NOT get hurt again! I really just want to feel what others feel. Be able to walk down the street holding hands with someone that I have a connection with. Be able to have emotional conversations and have him support me. I want a best friend in him and know that if I were to be in trouble I'd always have a place to go. Apparently that is too hard to recieve. And I'm going to wait for it, because once I get it, it will be like magic.
I want someone to hold me, kiss my head, and run their fingers through my hair. (When it's straight) I want to go to bed at night with his arm around me and feel protected by him being there. I want to wrestle and play around and make him feel bad because he accidentally hurt me. I want to have laughter fits in which we act so stupid and immature, but it's funny. But what I want most is trust and faith in each other.
If I could ask for one thing for christmas, that is what I'd want....
I'm suffering from the Monday Blues!