Mar 05, 2006 23:22
i think that we are facing what we cannot understand. Why is making plans to travel so complicated? I think that's why people become homebodys because it's easy and lazy to stay in one town your whole life. I'm sick of living in the middle, where I'm comfortable and settling for something while dreaming about other things. Spending half the day in dreams within my head of everything i would be doing in faraway lands, and how much i really don't think i would miss this mediocre security.
When i try to think simply and appreciate simple things, i feel so underachieved, like i'm faking, because I can't hide from the truth that i am thinking about things deeper and more complicated. Like a type of self-torture.
So many things are boggling m mind. Like my veteran next door neighbor who threatens to pull his shotgun out on me.