Silent lover 2/2
Tittle: Silent lover.
Author: ircha_chu
Chapter: 2/2.
Genre: Angst - Romance
Ratings: PG or lower.
Warnings: malexmale love , errors
Disclaimer: MUHAHHAHHAH ... no *sniff*.
Summary: Kouyou is beautiful but what happens when he loves someone that turns him on?
Comments: READ PLEASEEE !!! Comments are love :D
'I love Yuu!'
Yutaka looked shocked.He didn't notice at first when Kouyou said 'he' and he thought Kou has some usually problems with a girl.But he heard one of his band-mate's name.What was that ? He knew Kouyou was confused.He was sure of it..
'This will find an end .. ' Kou whispered and leaned his head on the pillow.
Beautiful? Takashima Kouyou was more than that.He looked amazing.He was perfect but this didn't helped 'till now with Yuu and not even in the future.Yuu was a serious man , hard to get to talk to.He was always concerned about his work and he never showed to the others love or some 'romance shit' like that as he was calling it.
Yutaka was thinking at a way to understand first and then maybe help his friend with it.
'Since when you love him ?' Yutaka's voice felt cold like he was accusing Kouyou for loving Yuu.
'Almost ... ' Kou stopped feeling a tear through his soft and white skin but after a minute he continued..
'Almost 7 years ..'
Yutaka was even more shocked.You could read this on his face.He was wondering how is like to be so alone in love for 7 years and the only word that came in his mind to describe the situation it was 'hurt'.
'7 years,Kou?Don't you want to tell him? Or you'll keep it silent ...?'
His friend wanted just to help though it was the first time when he couldn't help his friend.He didn't know how or what to tell.
'I don't have the straight to and anyway ... I'd fail miserable ...'
Yutaka felt so sad about his friend.They were together for 7 years and he never thought that problems of this kind would appear.
'No .. You must ..'
Yutaka said by reflex.
'Kai! If I do this ...and he'd refuse ... I'll end up my work here .. the love .. will disappear'
Then a silent sigh made the two of them look at each other.It was a different situation .. too complicated somehow.Yuu? He is ... different.The silence made the two of them understand that it was enough for one day so they just tried to fell asleep though Kouyou didn't slept at all only at 5:48 when he fell asleep and it last only for two hours.In that two hours Yutaka was already up and he called Yuu to come at Kou's place.
To : Aoi Yuu
Hey , Yuu! Can you come at Uruha at 8:30?
~ after 15 minutes ~
To : Mommy Kai
Why? Is he sick ? Something happened or ... ?
To : Aoi Yuu
Kou is strange.And only you can calm him down ... well now he is sleeping but he was feeling bad those days y'know.
To : Mommy Kai
I'll try to come.
To : Aoi Yuu
You know that when he is angry or upset you are the only one that can talk to him so please ... he needs help
To : Mommy Kai
I said I'll come.I'll help him .
Yutaka smiles at Yuu's answer though he was worried that Yuu won't help the situation.Kouyou will kill him after he finds out but he'll do him a surprise.He made something for Kou and Yuu to eat while Kou was still sleeping.In 15 minutes the food was ready and at 7:57 the sleepy blondie beauty was up in the kitchen and raised an eyebrow at Yutaka with a smirk on his face.
'Cooking for me ? How cute mommy kai loves me'
Yutaka only grinned at him and Kou left to wash his teeth.While he was at the bathroom , Yuu came and entered like it was his own house.Yutaka showed him that Kou was at bathroom and pointed to scare him.Yuu smiled a little and got to the bathroom.The door was closed so he just waited for him to get out.In 2 minutes Kouyou opened the door calm just to find Yuu's face that made him scream like a women when is giving birth.
' What the fuck man ? ' Kou shouted but he was affright.He didn't know why Yuu was there but the only thing he knew it was that Yuu didn't come because he wanted to,he came because he was called , thing which made Kou to think at Yutaka.
'Sorry ... I did mean to scare you but I didn't mean to angry you,'
Yuu gives him a smile that Kouyou loved.NO! I'm sorry! That Kouyou adored.He'd hug him and kiss him and even make love to him in that moment but he didn't and it was so hard to resist to Yuu.He was perfect like Kou wrote down on 50 papers 'I love you,Yuu!'.
'How come you are here? Did Yutaka called you?'
Kouyou looks away just to not get so lost in Yuu's eyes.What little butterflies ? In his stomach were mutant butterflies.
'No.I came to see you and him but mostly you cause you aren't well lately.'
Yuu moved his gaze to Kou's lips but quickly looked back in his eyes.Kouyou knew he couldn't look in Yuu's eyes for long cause he never did or just when Yuu was focusing somewhere else.But it didn't last long because Kou wouldn't resist and he'd kiss him.For a moment Kouyou got lost in thinking.He was so happy to see him but he was depressed too.He will never tell Yuu that.Never was a deep word for Kou but he knew that Yuu wouldn't look at him and he didn't wanted to complicate Yuu's mind.
Kouyou ~
God how I wish he'd let me love him!I wish he would be happy and me too.Sometimes I just wonder why is God teasing me with such an angel? No ... Yuu is more than that.Yuu is everything and more.Yuu is something too important to be called an angel.I just can't sleep at night cause I wished I'd feel the warmth of his arms and those tears .. well .. those tears will never stop crying at your beautiful face wherever I'd be.
'Something happened ?' Yuu asked putting his hand on the others shoulder.
'Nothing .. let's just eat something and I'm okay,don't worry about me.Just that those days I didn't sleep well.The reason is unknown.I just didn't find it ' Kouyou giggled just to distract the raven man's attention from the worrying.
When they went in the kitchen there was no Yutaka and only the two of them.Uruha's hands were shaking when he got a glass of water just to calm himself down.He had some periods like this and mostly 7 years ago when he felt he's in love for the first time with Yuu.He was used with being upset and angry at himself because of that but after he realized that he should just love Yuu unconditionally.
After they ate Yuu got a call from some man that asked him to meet and Kou told him he understands the situation and he can go but in his heart, he didn't.He hated when Yuu was around other people than his band-mates.
After 2 months of being depressed somehow but in the same time confused Kouyou decided that it'll be just ok if he'll take a break from the work.That he'll quit the band and look for some other thing for a while just to forget about him.It was the concert they work for some time and the lead guitarist seemed very happy and crying all the time but covering it.Looking at his fans and at his band-mates made him feel so depressed that he'll just end this.At the end of the concert he whispered to Taka to let him talk for two minutes and Takanori was confused but he let him.
'Hey people .... You all know I love you and of course my band-mates too.Without your support we wouldn't be here and we want to thank so much for your support.You meant a lot for me but for some reasons I must say goodbye to you.'
Kouyou took a break because he was crying so much and looking at his fans crying too when they realized that Uruha had to leave made him cry even harder.Looking at his band-mates shocked faces and how Yuu looked so shocked but he continued cause he already decided something.Though Takanori could have stop him , he didn't.Maybe because of the shock or maybe just because he was confused.The fans were shouting his name while crying but he continued while taking a few breaks in his speech.
'Ok .. this doesn't mean that The GazettE won't be the same or maybe they will even improve.These guys here are so working to give good music and to make friends.They are very special to me and Taka-chan , Reita , Yutaka and ... Yuu ... I love them all and that's why you all must to go on in listening this band even if I won't be anymore as a guitarist here.The show must go on!' Kou just covers his face because the tears wouldn't let him speak.He wips them but in that moment he really looked like a sad duckey. ' But .. I ... will always love you and never forget those good moments we had together and I hope my band-mates will understand me too and they will go on in making more good music.This was my last live along with The GazettE so I hope you all enjoyed it.I don't want to say good bye too... I know but I just can't sing along them anymore.Thank you a lot for listening to me and I love you!!'
While the fans became noisy from the crying and yelling Kouyou's scene name he turned his back crying like hell too and hugged his band-mates who were still confused so they got in the backstage for a break.
'Kouyou!!!' Takanori yelled at him with tears in his eyes.
Kou was crying too hard to answer and he hugged once again Yutaka hard who was the only one who knew the reason of his leaving.
'You don't leave The GazettE , Kou!!' .. Reita shouted ... ' What did we promised , Uru? Don't you remember ?'
Uruha nodded a second and then looked at Yuu who was staring at him , crying too but he didn't say a word.Maybe because of the shock or maybe because he didn't wanted to so Kou just wiped his tears.
' I just can't sing anymore ' and he got in the bathroom for a moment.Ruki and Yuu got on the stage still crying just to confirm that this might change to all fans who looked like someone died and it died.A part of The GazettE died.
While Yutaka and Reita didn't paid attention , Kou just left with his guitar and no more words.He took a taxi and he also left a note on a table in one of the rooms from the backstage.He was leaving in his hometown , Kanagawa.
The concert ended and there were millions of broken hearts who just left unknowing why Uruha would leave.After that the four of them looked for Uruha but he wasn't there anymore.The Gazette took a break of a month from singing in respect for Uruha and they decided to not attack him with questions from the first though they tried to call him but his phone was closed.They were missing Kou a lot and couldn't stand this.
All those hours Kouyou only cried and cried till he couldn't take it anymore.He missed so much the guys and Yuu .. his face.
After 3 days of the concert ~
'Guys ? Do you want to eat something ?' Yutaka asked the guys to distract them a little.
'No ... ' Takanori and Akira said while pouting and looking in some pics from their phones.
'Yuu ?' Yutaka asked once again.
'No , thanks.I can't eat.' Yuu said sighing and looking lost in a point.
'I need to talk to you a little.It's important.Can you ?' Yutaka looked serious and concerned at Yuu.
Yuu only nodded and left with his friend in the kitchen while the others two were just texting Kouyou non stop like maniacs.It was scarring.
'Yuu ... it's about Kouyou ..'
The others gaze moved quickly at his friend becoming so focused because of the subject.
'I know he will hate me for telling you this but I have to.I mean .. I can't take it without him too and I know if I tell you it wouldn't bring him back but you need to know.' Yutaka sighed.
'Just tell me.' Yuu said focusing more and more.
'He left because he was in love with you , Yuu.He loved you for 7 years and couldn't take it anymore.'
Yuu was shocked.He thought about it in the past that he might have some feelings but he was shocked about the truth of Uruha.Indeed he liked Kouyou but he never knew if he was in love.When he was thinking that Kouyou loved him for 7 years and not telling he got a feeling.A bad one that made him depressed too.
'R .. Really ?' he started to breath hard.
'Yes , Yuu.That day when I called you there , at his house , it was because Kou stayed awake half crying all the night.He just slept two hours in the morning being too tired but that night told me how much he loved and loves you.We must talk with him.'
'We must talk to him.We'll go and find him.' He said concerned and he was feeling so strange.It was like falling in love too but this time he knew he was.He felt the same in the past too but he never thought about love in that way.
'Guys! Let's think a bit...' Yuu said looking at the other two who were so upset. 'If Uruha isn't at the hotel .. let's ask his mom is she knows something.' Yuu said hoping they will find Kouyou.
'Moshi moshi , miss Takashima!'
'Yutaka? Is it you ?' she asks.
'Hai! It's me.I was wondering if Kouyou is there ...'
'Yes , he is! He is in his room.Do you want me to call him ? Though he might not come because he didn't opened his door.Only to go to bathroom and to eat something but I can try if you want to.' she says somehow calm.
'No , it's ok.Just to make sure he will stay there,please!'
'Sure.. he said he'll be around for a week.'
'Good cause we want to visit him but please don't tell him.It's a secret.' Yutaka said laughing brightly.
'Ok.I won't.I'll make you something to eat too since you will be in a long ride.I know what happened and I know the reason too.Just don't hurt him more than he is.' she says but with a cute voice as she knew that Kouyou loved and loves Yuu but she was ok with it.If he was thinking that this would make him happy she just let him be.
'It's ok.Maybe he will even be happier.Thank you , miss Takashima.Ja ne.' he says and hangs up.The question was written on Yuu's face so the younger man just told him..
'His mom knows and we'll make him a surprise ok,Yuu? You just must be sure of what you feel.' Yutaka smiled.
'We heard it too and it's so sad that Reita even cried..' Ruki laughed at his friend.
'Shut up,Ru! You don't know how it is..' he murbled.
'And you know ? ' Ruki asked confused but jealous cause he always had a crush for Rei-chan.
Rei just took Ruki's hand and hold it.Ru looked shocked but he didn't pushed him away cause it was like a 'love you! be with me ' for him so he just smiled and kissed Rei's cheek.
Yutaka giggled at them and Yuu smiled amused thinking of how he will avoid Kouyou.The mommy drummer put his hand on Yuu's shoulder and the three of them looked at him.
'It's going to be ok.' they said smiling at hugging Yuu who was even now shocked about Kow.
'Do you really love Uruha , Yuu-kun ?' Ruki asked acting like a little girl which made Rei smiled cause he always like the childish Ruki.
'So guys .. who can drive ?' the guitarist asked serious.
'I'll drive and Ruki will stay near me if he promise to not disturb me when I'm driving.' he laughs at his partner and Ruki pouts at his comment .. 'I won't disturb you , Rei-chan'
The driving didn't last long but Yuu was lost in thoughts and he missed Uruha like he never did.He didn't realized that he could have hurt Uruha so much that he'd leave the band.What he was thinking now scared him a little.What if Uruha wouldn't talk to him or to them anymore ? What if Uruha got sick? Those questions scared him even if he always looked so cold.He wasn't... He was thinking that if he will avoid Uruha , Uruha wouldn't accept the fact that he likes him and he'd push him away so he just tried to ignore Uruha in a way.When they got in front of Kouyou's apartment , they knocked and his mom let them in while Kou was watching TV with a really , really depressed face.He didn't notice when the others entered the living room but his gaze moved when he was disturbed by Yutaka's voice.
'Hey , Kow..' he said calm.
Uruha looked at them and he got scared a little but then he was about to cry when he saw that they were staying there.The group surrounded the blonde and they hugged him all in the same time while crying.
'Kou , we miss you.We won't get another guitarists... we want you .. ' Ruki said sighing.
'Kou .. Yuu wants to talk to you ' Yutaka told Kou smiling while the blonde's eyes became the size of the moon like he was scared and in shoock.
Yuu took Kou's hand and they got in his room.Kou looked away but Yuu kept staring at him.
'What's wrong , Yuu ?'
Uruha can remember well this question and it was his time to ask it.
'I love you , Kouyou.'
~ END ~