an unhealthy crush
on kirk brian johnson....i think....i had gone to ask him for a tiny handout in order to eat...and well, i felt kinda embarrassed, yet i wanted to cry because, for some reason he makes me want to cry...or i was just exhausted on with whom to ask for some spare change for something to eat...or could it be that i think today is the day i fell in love with his nervous behaviors....he is so handsome....and a real card....his nervous mannerism can be delibrate but cute...adorable? there's gotta big a unsissy way of putting it....i don't know...i feel strange...maybe it's someone else's power of suggestion. it's not a very good idea to fall in love with anyone in this day and age...it's a means of much heartache, disapppointment and grief...it's desecption on a hybrid theory typt of level and then some....they usesd to say 3 to 1, now it's 5 to one...and then some...it depends on with whom the one iand 5 is holding hostage if ya know what i mean...it's no fair to those held captive they can barely breathe as it is, during a day to day existence and let during hedonistic or pedophile like experiences...they don't get fed or get water.....stick your hands in a pool or wash your hands and arms....or soak in a cool tub not too cold...and you'll never have your own body to have been so thirsty...i learned this from a dear man from hondouros .....we went swimming over in las encinas in pasadena and we had to share on our swimming experience, he stated he did'nt how thirsty his body until he had gone swimming....i now know what he meant by that statement.