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Hi everybody, I don't really know what to talk about. My emotions have been kind of behaving weird lately. Just earlier today I was watching a movie in a good mood, and then this character in the movie said something to another character which reminded me of Shawn Ferber. Next thing I know, the most devastating parts (to me) of Shawn's funeral began playing through my head like a movie and I just broke down. I was like a little child crying endlessly to where I couldn't even breathe.
Anyway, since my last update, things around me have only gotten worse, but... I've been staying in good spirits. On Friday, I got taken out of school because my grandfather (my dad's dad) passed away in the hospital. Earlier that day in school, I got in a pretty aggressive, anger-filled arguement with a damn good friend of mine. My third thing is about my apartment situation. I need a roommate for it to work and now I'm down to only one last option. If it doesn't work with this person, I have no choice but to move to Georgia.
On a different note, I want to say that I'm going to prove all of you wrong. If you know me personally and have talked to me about my apartment situation, I want to say: You're wrong. There is only ONE person I have talked to that thinks I can do it. Most of you think I won't keep up with the work (the job), which means I won't be able to pay rent anymore. Some of you think that I very well might be able to afford it, but that I'll fail in keeping up with my SCHOOL work. So what it comes down to is, besides one single person, most of you think I'll fail on keeping up with the job and/or rent, and the remainder of you thinks I'll fail in keeping up with school work and so my grades will be failing. Well it's gotten to the point where too many people think I'm going to fail and to be honest, it's kind of pissed me off. So now that I'm pissed off, I'm going to work extra hard to prove you all wrong. I'm going to do this. I'm going to make it. I'm going to work my ass off at my job, and when I get home each night, I'm going to work my ass off on homework. I will succeed. I will do good. I'm not going to be the piece of shit most of you think I amount to.
Anyway, inside I'm doing okay. Most of the time I've been in a good, happy mood. But I have been having my moments where I'm either sad or mad and just don't want people around. I don't know, it's weird. But I'm done bitching for tonight, I've got too much other stuff to do right now. I'll update with a "fun/happy" post tomorrow. Lol Goodnight all.
Anyway, since my last update, things around me have only gotten worse, but... I've been staying in good spirits. On Friday, I got taken out of school because my grandfather (my dad's dad) passed away in the hospital. Earlier that day in school, I got in a pretty aggressive, anger-filled arguement with a damn good friend of mine. My third thing is about my apartment situation. I need a roommate for it to work and now I'm down to only one last option. If it doesn't work with this person, I have no choice but to move to Georgia.
On a different note, I want to say that I'm going to prove all of you wrong. If you know me personally and have talked to me about my apartment situation, I want to say: You're wrong. There is only ONE person I have talked to that thinks I can do it. Most of you think I won't keep up with the work (the job), which means I won't be able to pay rent anymore. Some of you think that I very well might be able to afford it, but that I'll fail in keeping up with my SCHOOL work. So what it comes down to is, besides one single person, most of you think I'll fail on keeping up with the job and/or rent, and the remainder of you thinks I'll fail in keeping up with school work and so my grades will be failing. Well it's gotten to the point where too many people think I'm going to fail and to be honest, it's kind of pissed me off. So now that I'm pissed off, I'm going to work extra hard to prove you all wrong. I'm going to do this. I'm going to make it. I'm going to work my ass off at my job, and when I get home each night, I'm going to work my ass off on homework. I will succeed. I will do good. I'm not going to be the piece of shit most of you think I amount to.
Anyway, inside I'm doing okay. Most of the time I've been in a good, happy mood. But I have been having my moments where I'm either sad or mad and just don't want people around. I don't know, it's weird. But I'm done bitching for tonight, I've got too much other stuff to do right now. I'll update with a "fun/happy" post tomorrow. Lol Goodnight all.