Anger or disappointment.
I don't know which it is.
**EDIT**
When I wrote this, I had just woken up from crashing out at about 5:30 in the evening. Then I went back to back at around 12 or 1, and woke up again at 5:30. I'm just glad it's friday.
**EDIT**
And I don't know myself. What I know know is that I am so fucking depressed, and angry at everything, especially today of all random days. I fell asleep at around 6 PM because I Could, have had very fitful pieces of sleep, and decided to give my bed a break and wake up for a bit.
There are things that I think that I don't write down here, because some people do read this and I don't want to worry them, or give them cause for alarm when I am feeling particularly melodramatic, but goddamn, it's getting harder and harder to wake up in the morning, and I wish I could say it wasn't that i missed her.
I'm such a damned fatalist, whats the point in trying if everything goes away in the end, and all that jazz.
I just want to sleep forever sometimes.
Assemblage 23 - Underneath the Ice
I can feel the violence
Spill across the floor
My eyes have grown too clouded
To see it anymore
Fading into nothing
Turning into steam
Left in desparation
With nothing to redeem
Underneath the ice I find
A place to rest my weary mind
The cold deep water numbs my pain
Until I can face myself again
Waiting for redemption
That never seems to come
Hands reach beneath the surface
But I don't know where from
I'm not ready to return yet
I just need a moment more
So I can try to remember
What it is I came here for
Underneath the ice I find
A place to rest my weary mind
The cold deep water numbs my pain
Until I can face myself again
Sinking Fast
Too dark to see
The buzzing din
Envelopes me
Too late now
Nowhere to go
I'm sinking in
The undertow
**EDIT**
When I wrote this, I had just woken up from crashing out at about 5:30 in the evening. Then I went back to back at around 12 or 1, and woke up again at 5:30. I'm just glad it's friday.
**EDIT**
And I don't know myself. What I know know is that I am so fucking depressed, and angry at everything, especially today of all random days. I fell asleep at around 6 PM because I Could, have had very fitful pieces of sleep, and decided to give my bed a break and wake up for a bit.
There are things that I think that I don't write down here, because some people do read this and I don't want to worry them, or give them cause for alarm when I am feeling particularly melodramatic, but goddamn, it's getting harder and harder to wake up in the morning, and I wish I could say it wasn't that i missed her.
I'm such a damned fatalist, whats the point in trying if everything goes away in the end, and all that jazz.
I just want to sleep forever sometimes.
Assemblage 23 - Underneath the Ice
I can feel the violence
Spill across the floor
My eyes have grown too clouded
To see it anymore
Fading into nothing
Turning into steam
Left in desparation
With nothing to redeem
Underneath the ice I find
A place to rest my weary mind
The cold deep water numbs my pain
Until I can face myself again
Waiting for redemption
That never seems to come
Hands reach beneath the surface
But I don't know where from
I'm not ready to return yet
I just need a moment more
So I can try to remember
What it is I came here for
Underneath the ice I find
A place to rest my weary mind
The cold deep water numbs my pain
Until I can face myself again
Sinking Fast
Too dark to see
The buzzing din
Envelopes me
Too late now
Nowhere to go
I'm sinking in
The undertow