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Aug 11, 2011 21:59

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.




Wowzers, my current relationship.
Well, Zack and I have been together for a year as of the 31st of July. We had an incredibly rough start to our relationship, the day after we started dating Zack's step father (who raised him) died in a car accident. It was unexpected and horrifically sad. I stepped up to the plate and did my best to be supportive of the boy I was just getting to know, and be supportive of his whole family. I remember the day it happened, leaving work and rushing to his house. Arriving with tissues and a sandwich, because I knew there would be tears and that everyone would forget to eat in the midst of so much grief.
I wasn't long out of a two year relationship and when Zack and I first met I was sort of a basket case, I couldn't choose between him and my pathetic attempt at "freedom" (slutery) and then chose the latter. That didn't last long however, we talked about it, we stopped talking for a few days and were going to be friends then I realized I was being stupid and showed up at his house and said "I want to do this."

We weren't serious right off the bat, we were "committed but not serious." It was really hard for me, I liked not worrying but at the same time all of my past habits reared their ugly heads, I realized how much my past relationships had affected my ability to be happy and healthy. I was so insecure and I took Zack being casual and taking things slow as not caring about me. His independence intimidated me and I didn't know what to do with my time alone.

And thus I began to see a therapist. There were three tries at this, the third being the charm. Just last week I had my last therapy appointment, in which my therapist explained how proud he was of me and how amazing it was that I came in with such will power and met my goals.

I am now capable of coping with stress, depression and anxiety, on my own. My self esteem and confidence have been at an almost all time high, and are still going up. And best of all I love and value my independence more than I thought I could.

Oh yeah about Zack, he's great. He is very supportive and firm. One of the reasons I have been able to realize and make headway on so many of my issues is because he will not give in. He is a healthy minded, independent guy and does not feed into my bullshit. As many times as I tried in the beginning to pull him into codependency he wouldn't do it. I was left feeling like an ass, examining my motives and realizing that I needed help. I got the help and it's made an incredible difference.

The way our relationship has grown makes me very happy, I had no idea we would make it this far or even grow to love one another. Oh, and another thing, I actually like Zack. That sounds weird but it's unusual for me. I don't have ulterior motives, I actually like him as a person and enjoy being around him. If we stopped enjoying each others company and decided it was best to part I would, because I don't need him, I like him and WANT to be with him. It's a great feeling.

This first year with Zack has been great and I am enjoying the present and look forward to the future.




02 - Where you'd like to be in 10 years.
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11 - Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 13 - Somewhere you'd like to move or visit.
Day 14 - Your earliest memory.
Day 15 - Your favourite photo of yourself and why.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 - A photo of you in the last item of clothing you bought.
Day 19 - Discuss disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
Day 21 - One of your favourite shows.
Day 22 - How have you changed in the past two years?
Day 23 - Give five pictures of guys/girls who are famous and you find attractive.
Day 24 - Your favourite movie and what it's about.
Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Day 29 - Goals for the next thirty days.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.
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