Gratitude
I spent the last two days thinking about myself and the kind of person I am. I'm an introvert, manipulative, boring, petty, insensitive and unfriendly. So many negative traits surfaced and of course that made me feel like crap.
... Which also made me feel like I should be grateful for and appreciative of the friends who are still around and bother to continue hanging out with me. Sometimes I can't help but think they hate me because of all that's bad about me and if given a choice, they'd stay as far away as possible.
Then I look around and see the popular kids laughing, joking and receiving all the positive attention and nothing for me. Honestly, it gets depressing at times. So I choose to hide and detach myself. It's a vicious cycle I get it, but trying to change is incredibly harder than it sounds.
I can't imagine the world without friends. Although not all are die-hard friends, they are still friends nonetheless and if I could, I'd make all of them my best friends.
So for all of you guys out there who have been the most patient and tolerant bunch out there, here's a huge and sincere 'Thank You' for you. Thank you for not giving up on me.
... Which also made me feel like I should be grateful for and appreciative of the friends who are still around and bother to continue hanging out with me. Sometimes I can't help but think they hate me because of all that's bad about me and if given a choice, they'd stay as far away as possible.
Then I look around and see the popular kids laughing, joking and receiving all the positive attention and nothing for me. Honestly, it gets depressing at times. So I choose to hide and detach myself. It's a vicious cycle I get it, but trying to change is incredibly harder than it sounds.
I can't imagine the world without friends. Although not all are die-hard friends, they are still friends nonetheless and if I could, I'd make all of them my best friends.
So for all of you guys out there who have been the most patient and tolerant bunch out there, here's a huge and sincere 'Thank You' for you. Thank you for not giving up on me.