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Today was okay. I kind of feel like a horrible person, but at the same time I kind of don't. Cory's uncle died, a person I don't think he was ever really close to, and I mean I feel bad and sad for him. But, he wanted me to go to Tampa with him today for this little get together or something and I didn't want to go. He really wanted me too, so I acted like I really tried to get the day off from work but I didn't really try hard at all. I mean he's never really been there for me when I needed him, I mean I haven't gone to him everytime I needed someone to lean on, but when I have, I believe I got shot down everytime but twice. Like when I found out my mom had cancer and I started to cry he held me. When I cried because my grandma is a stupid bitch, he kind of held me while he was asleep. But thats it. Not any other time, like when I told him I was depressed and sick of life and wanted to just die, or when I was in Tenn with me mom he was out partying the whole time. ETC.
So I didn't go. I lied to him, but in a since I don't think it's a big deal because I really think he would have just been as asshole the whole time. Because that's what he does when he's sad, or any other emotion but happy, is be an ass to me. Except for when I'm telling him it's over.
Anyways. I got a 6 CENT raise today. Ohhh boy. Isn't that just exciting? We had this whole getting a review on our performance thing today at work, and she was like "I'm really pleased with how well you're doing. blah blah etc etc etc, yeah yeah, I'm giving you a raise and you're the only one I'm giving a raise to." Me: "Seriously? YAY!" Her: "You'll be making $6.85 now instead of $6.79." OHHHHHHHHHHHH man, That's HUGE! but it's better then nothing I guess. There are people who have been there for months more then me, and are still making 6.79. But damn. The stingey ass ice cream ppl gave me atleast a 25 cent raise, lol.
Anyway. I'm almost to the point to where I don't know if I can wait untill Cory's car gets fixed.
I didn't think it would take this long.
I'm miserable. He's suffocating me. Seriously.