Does anyone know what a heart breaking sounds like?...cause I think mine just did
Well, I know this is going to sound childish of me and that I might offend people and I'm sorry if I do, I don't mean to offend you. I just needed to get this off my chest.
I read in someone's journal that I'm still madly in love with (that was a dead give away and if you don't know who I'm talking about, stop reading right now.)wrote in his journal that he still liked this girl that he broke up with (and I know it's not me because he said "she doesn't like me back" and we all know I want his nuts, like right now) and it was a mistake that he broke up with her. That, right there, broke my heart. Not because it's sweet and all, but because it makes me feel like when he went out with me that...mistake.
See? It's stupid I know, but I can't help feeling like that. He's the person that I went the farthest with and...I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT!
It's like my friend shaina said "It's like something's missing" and I don't want something to be missing. I want everything to be there. I want everything to go back to the way it was, when I was happy. I want everything to be ok.
Not only to I have that feeling, but I have this constant sinking feeling and everytime I float to the top, I get hurt and start sinking again. I need someone here to help me. Right now I have like no escape. I only have my mom to talk to, and sometimes that's ok, but sometimes, I just need someone I can vent to (in person) and scream at and try to smoother with a pillow and they won't get mad. I just need someone to talk to who can help me and tell me that things will be alright, even when I'm feeling lower than low.
Ok...I'm done.
I read in someone's journal that I'm still madly in love with (that was a dead give away and if you don't know who I'm talking about, stop reading right now.)wrote in his journal that he still liked this girl that he broke up with (and I know it's not me because he said "she doesn't like me back" and we all know I want his nuts, like right now) and it was a mistake that he broke up with her. That, right there, broke my heart. Not because it's sweet and all, but because it makes me feel like when he went out with me that...mistake.
See? It's stupid I know, but I can't help feeling like that. He's the person that I went the farthest with and...I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT!
It's like my friend shaina said "It's like something's missing" and I don't want something to be missing. I want everything to be there. I want everything to go back to the way it was, when I was happy. I want everything to be ok.
Not only to I have that feeling, but I have this constant sinking feeling and everytime I float to the top, I get hurt and start sinking again. I need someone here to help me. Right now I have like no escape. I only have my mom to talk to, and sometimes that's ok, but sometimes, I just need someone I can vent to (in person) and scream at and try to smoother with a pillow and they won't get mad. I just need someone to talk to who can help me and tell me that things will be alright, even when I'm feeling lower than low.
Ok...I'm done.