I want to fly away...
I might as well be dead. Instead of letting me go back to the hospital where I am safe they gave me drugs. So I'm really doped up. They only make me feel more down and not able to function, all I want is to burn myself, make all the pain go away. My friend's momdied yesterday morning! I was really pretty close with her. I'm so out of it though, I can't cry. But I feel the pain in my chest and stomach. I don't want to do anything anymore. All I do is lay around, stare at the wall and sleep. It's come to the point where I just want my life to end. I want all of the pain to go away. Besides after a few days everyone would be saying Jackie who?