I don't know...
When it comes to having strong feelings for someone it's hard for me! I have been hurt so many times in past relationships, past friendships and in my family that it's hard for me to be ok with my feelings.
At this moment my feelings for a certain someone are extremely strong. I can't stop thinking about her, when I do I get the butterflies in my stomach. She makes me smile, she makes me feel safe, I'm happy! I haven't been truly happy in a long time. It's been so long, two years probably. I just don't know what to do. We aren't together but I want to be. I don't know what is happening. We spend almost everyday with her. She's leaving Sunday for three weeks which is going to drive me crazy not seeing her. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to let my feelings for her take over. I don't want to get hurt like I have been so many times before. I don't want to hurt her. I don't want to get close to her because I don't want her to leave. I can't not get close to her because it's just happening. I want to tell her all about myself, all that I've been through everything. But I don't feel like she really wants to know. Except I feel like she can't talk to me. Last night something was clearly wrong but she wouldn't tell me. It made me really sad, and all I could think of is that I did something.
I don't really know what to do. Do I just wait and see? Do I tell her exactly how I feel and risk loosing her? Do I stop caring so theoretically I won't get hurt?
All I know is that my feelings for this girl are more then I have had for anyone in a very long time.
At this moment my feelings for a certain someone are extremely strong. I can't stop thinking about her, when I do I get the butterflies in my stomach. She makes me smile, she makes me feel safe, I'm happy! I haven't been truly happy in a long time. It's been so long, two years probably. I just don't know what to do. We aren't together but I want to be. I don't know what is happening. We spend almost everyday with her. She's leaving Sunday for three weeks which is going to drive me crazy not seeing her. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to let my feelings for her take over. I don't want to get hurt like I have been so many times before. I don't want to hurt her. I don't want to get close to her because I don't want her to leave. I can't not get close to her because it's just happening. I want to tell her all about myself, all that I've been through everything. But I don't feel like she really wants to know. Except I feel like she can't talk to me. Last night something was clearly wrong but she wouldn't tell me. It made me really sad, and all I could think of is that I did something.
I don't really know what to do. Do I just wait and see? Do I tell her exactly how I feel and risk loosing her? Do I stop caring so theoretically I won't get hurt?
All I know is that my feelings for this girl are more then I have had for anyone in a very long time.