I must be looking very old tonight.
I don't work tomorrow. I plan to not have this happen again:
Oh, things are going well. Well enough. I feel some pride and some shame in not attending a full week of school this semester yet, or: in not planning on attending a full week of school this semester. Because in most senses, school doesn't matter anymore. But I hope to do well on those AP tests. For kicks.
Getting accepted easily (and when I say easily, I mean that in the least pretentious, and in the most justifiable way) into my colleges made me feel great. Great in that sort of: I've always had pretty mediocre grades compared to most my friends, but I thought I'd always be okay, and I am okay. Maybe it's a relief kind of great. Or maybe it's a reassurance kind of great like: Hey, you're pretty great, want to give us money to live over here? Great.
Maybe I feel pretty great that I've finally decided for sure for positive for keeps where I'm going this time. I mean, I've planned on going to Aquinas as of last year, but I keep playing with the thought of going to Ann Arbor since I got accepted last December. So for the past three whole months I've been thinking: "Well, I told Kerry I'd go to Aquinas and everyone else. And I don't want to be a liar and make plans with someone when I'm just going to back out at the last second. But it's still great because I'll get to go there for almost free and I'd pay for my own college. But I'd live at home, and that kind of sucks, even though I like my family. But going to Michigan would be so nice because Joanne is there, and Melissa is going to be there, and it's not very far from State where everyone else is going. But not that many people are even going to Michigan as planned before, so that has to make it less great doesn't it? And Aquinas doesn't really have a strong anthropology program like Michigan does, but money! I've got to be smart with money, and not be fooled by the lure of Ann Arbor and real college life. But Aquinas is still going to be great. It's got to be great."
Choosing a college is kind of a hard and serious thing, even if I'm only going there for a year. But yeah, so that's where I am now. I visited Aquinas last Saturday, and everything is in place. I'm going to Aquinas for a year, or two if it's really great and economical, then I plan on transferring to Ann Arbor (I hope I can hold my acceptance for a year like most place) for the rest of my school, or moving to a random state for college (probably Washington) with Kerry like we joke about, but really mean.
But really, if my family had enough money or if I were smart enough for my tuition to be less than or equal to five thousand dollars, I would be living in Ann Arbor. And that kind of sucks. But only in that Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want Smiths song kind of way.
This has been my scattered college update. I'm scared to not have all my friends under one building, but college will be great. Enjoying the rest of high school is better though.
Oh, things are going well. Well enough. I feel some pride and some shame in not attending a full week of school this semester yet, or: in not planning on attending a full week of school this semester. Because in most senses, school doesn't matter anymore. But I hope to do well on those AP tests. For kicks.
Getting accepted easily (and when I say easily, I mean that in the least pretentious, and in the most justifiable way) into my colleges made me feel great. Great in that sort of: I've always had pretty mediocre grades compared to most my friends, but I thought I'd always be okay, and I am okay. Maybe it's a relief kind of great. Or maybe it's a reassurance kind of great like: Hey, you're pretty great, want to give us money to live over here? Great.
Maybe I feel pretty great that I've finally decided for sure for positive for keeps where I'm going this time. I mean, I've planned on going to Aquinas as of last year, but I keep playing with the thought of going to Ann Arbor since I got accepted last December. So for the past three whole months I've been thinking: "Well, I told Kerry I'd go to Aquinas and everyone else. And I don't want to be a liar and make plans with someone when I'm just going to back out at the last second. But it's still great because I'll get to go there for almost free and I'd pay for my own college. But I'd live at home, and that kind of sucks, even though I like my family. But going to Michigan would be so nice because Joanne is there, and Melissa is going to be there, and it's not very far from State where everyone else is going. But not that many people are even going to Michigan as planned before, so that has to make it less great doesn't it? And Aquinas doesn't really have a strong anthropology program like Michigan does, but money! I've got to be smart with money, and not be fooled by the lure of Ann Arbor and real college life. But Aquinas is still going to be great. It's got to be great."
Choosing a college is kind of a hard and serious thing, even if I'm only going there for a year. But yeah, so that's where I am now. I visited Aquinas last Saturday, and everything is in place. I'm going to Aquinas for a year, or two if it's really great and economical, then I plan on transferring to Ann Arbor (I hope I can hold my acceptance for a year like most place) for the rest of my school, or moving to a random state for college (probably Washington) with Kerry like we joke about, but really mean.
But really, if my family had enough money or if I were smart enough for my tuition to be less than or equal to five thousand dollars, I would be living in Ann Arbor. And that kind of sucks. But only in that Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want Smiths song kind of way.
This has been my scattered college update. I'm scared to not have all my friends under one building, but college will be great. Enjoying the rest of high school is better though.