Sooo Fed Up!!
well the weather is a little better today. i might go to the park with my parents and the girls since my dad is gonna drop kris off @ his job today. ive been feeling really lonely lately and kris and i have been arguing over stupid little things. he just gets me so mad sometimes. i feel like he sees me as his slave to just run after him and pick up after his mess. i hate having my house unorganized and dirty so yea i do pick up his shit all the time. if he drinks juice he forgets to put it back in the fridge, he takes off his sneakers he'll leave them in the middle of the floor, he'll drop everything from inside his pockets all over the kitchen table and the worst thing of all is that if he loses something and cant find it, he would lose his stupid temper and destroy the entire house looking for his crap. if he wasnt so freaking disorganized he wouldnt have this issue. but anyway its like im so fucking fed up with all of this....he just gets on my nerves soooo bad. and to top it all of he wont change alina's diapers. he said that he thinks hes hurting her ::bullshit:: he just doesnt wanna change her diaper and i know it for sure because when analees was a baby he always changed her shity diapers without a problem...
today i was supposed to go to my friends "welcoming baby home" get-together but like always i have no one to stay with the girls and kris doesnt want me to go cuz he said that theres gonna be alot of people from his old block there and that they are gonna be smoking and drinking.. wow like i give 2 fuks.. im just there to visit my friends and try to have some fun without any kids around me. so hes saying that if i want to go i should take the girls with me but then again he just said that its a bad enviornmant<----i dont understand this dude. but whatever if kris wasnt working today i swear i wouldve left the girls with him. he thinks hes the only one that can go out and my ass has to stay home. he obviously has some brain fluid leaking cuz its not gonna go down like that... men are just so retarded i wish i could figure them out sometimes but thats just impossible...