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I don't know what to say right now. I usually just use this thing as a personal bitch session and dump out my grief to the internet that won't look at me oddly or assume that I am an asshole for being self absorbed. I think its because I am having too much fun when i feel good to let things like writing bother me. It's like i need to use the positive energy on something important instead of a live journal that four of my friends might read. But I am going to give it a shot. Unfortunately...I was feeling good all day, and was excited to be posting a journal...but something odd happened in the past twenty minutes. I got this sudden feeling like I was doing something that I shouldn't be doing. Almost like I was letting someone down. I don't know what it means.
Despite things that are suddenly out of my control, the past few days have been pleasant. Other than work being a bit of a bitch, my wallet constantly being empty, and having someone leaving before I even get to know them...regardless of all these things...I was feeling good about myself. Things were not working out in my favor, but I was just (dare I say it) happy, just being here.
but...now I feel weird.
It feels like I just back stabbed someone...or just broke up with someone. But I don't know what just happened. I...
Despite things that are suddenly out of my control, the past few days have been pleasant. Other than work being a bit of a bitch, my wallet constantly being empty, and having someone leaving before I even get to know them...regardless of all these things...I was feeling good about myself. Things were not working out in my favor, but I was just (dare I say it) happy, just being here.
but...now I feel weird.
It feels like I just back stabbed someone...or just broke up with someone. But I don't know what just happened. I...