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I really miss summertime.
I miss going out and coming home as the sun was coming up. I miss the sound of crickets at night and birds in the early morning. I miss thunder and lightening storms. I miss sitting around the bonfire for ungodly hours talking and laughing with the girls. I miss drinking with L. Wall, Rach Rich, Katie & Shan Shan the Rocket. I miss week long sleepovers. I miss driving to the beach, just to see Brandon. I miss going to the Renouf shows. I miss being with the Renouf boys 24/7. I miss Jay's Diner; Midget's chocolate peanut butter milkshake & Turner's pancakes that were bigger then his head. I miss being in the scene. I miss co-ed sleepovers. I miss skinny-dipping in my freezing cold pool at 2am with Aric, Sean & Shawn. I miss Shawn's crazyness - jumping off the top of my slide into the deep end - completely naked. I miss the nights where we'd lay in my driveway and look at the stars. I miss Robin, and being with her every single day. I miss taking random walks. I miss going to shows that are outside. I miss being drunk at those shows. I miss being online at 3am and carrying on a conversation with at least 4 people. I miss drunken phone calls. I miss getting ice cream. I miss walking on the pier. I miss going to Java's. I miss scattergories. I miss going to billiard's. I miss summer soccer. I miss being at Denny's every other night. I miss breaking the coke machine at the beach. I miss mission impossible. I miss sleeping outside. I miss everything. I miss the old me, the me I was before I met you. I miss knowing what life was like before meeting you. I miss text messaging with you until 4am. I miss talking to you online until ungodly hours of the morning. I miss how perfect we were for each other. I miss being a part of your heart and life. But I love the me that I am now, and it's all because of you.
I really don't know how I feel about anything anymore. I'm starting to not feel the same way about this one boy in particular. But then, at the same time, I know that no matter how hard I try no one will ever be able to take his place. He's seriously my entire world. And, it scares me to think that someone else could be taking his place. It's like I won't allow myself to let him be replaced even though I know that he should be. It's so hard.
It's Valentines Day. Ew. I'm not even bitter about not having a valentine or anything like that, but what a stupid holiday this really is.
On top of it all, I'm having the worst day ever? Yeah, that's what I thought. Woke up late, so I was rushing to work, ending up almost being killed by a deer, so I slowed down - making me late. Joe bitched me out. So that was shitty. It was just me and Sheila all morning. MY PERIOD IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING. Nick is an ass, I hope he dies. :) mm yeah. It's only 4oclock and I think I'm going to pass out for the remainder of the evening. ughhghhghghg.
On a happier note.. last night was hilarious. "What would you do if I hit your little guy?" - dan goede. Honestly though, who's surprised at that? Stymus.. I'm sorry that we have to see each other every day for the rest of our lives. HAHAHA. I love you. Let's just say that I had the best time I've ever had in a hot tub last night. Completely sober. Good frickin times.
I love you Katie Fox. <<3
I miss going out and coming home as the sun was coming up. I miss the sound of crickets at night and birds in the early morning. I miss thunder and lightening storms. I miss sitting around the bonfire for ungodly hours talking and laughing with the girls. I miss drinking with L. Wall, Rach Rich, Katie & Shan Shan the Rocket. I miss week long sleepovers. I miss driving to the beach, just to see Brandon. I miss going to the Renouf shows. I miss being with the Renouf boys 24/7. I miss Jay's Diner; Midget's chocolate peanut butter milkshake & Turner's pancakes that were bigger then his head. I miss being in the scene. I miss co-ed sleepovers. I miss skinny-dipping in my freezing cold pool at 2am with Aric, Sean & Shawn. I miss Shawn's crazyness - jumping off the top of my slide into the deep end - completely naked. I miss the nights where we'd lay in my driveway and look at the stars. I miss Robin, and being with her every single day. I miss taking random walks. I miss going to shows that are outside. I miss being drunk at those shows. I miss being online at 3am and carrying on a conversation with at least 4 people. I miss drunken phone calls. I miss getting ice cream. I miss walking on the pier. I miss going to Java's. I miss scattergories. I miss going to billiard's. I miss summer soccer. I miss being at Denny's every other night. I miss breaking the coke machine at the beach. I miss mission impossible. I miss sleeping outside. I miss everything. I miss the old me, the me I was before I met you. I miss knowing what life was like before meeting you. I miss text messaging with you until 4am. I miss talking to you online until ungodly hours of the morning. I miss how perfect we were for each other. I miss being a part of your heart and life. But I love the me that I am now, and it's all because of you.
I really don't know how I feel about anything anymore. I'm starting to not feel the same way about this one boy in particular. But then, at the same time, I know that no matter how hard I try no one will ever be able to take his place. He's seriously my entire world. And, it scares me to think that someone else could be taking his place. It's like I won't allow myself to let him be replaced even though I know that he should be. It's so hard.
It's Valentines Day. Ew. I'm not even bitter about not having a valentine or anything like that, but what a stupid holiday this really is.
On top of it all, I'm having the worst day ever? Yeah, that's what I thought. Woke up late, so I was rushing to work, ending up almost being killed by a deer, so I slowed down - making me late. Joe bitched me out. So that was shitty. It was just me and Sheila all morning. MY PERIOD IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING. Nick is an ass, I hope he dies. :) mm yeah. It's only 4oclock and I think I'm going to pass out for the remainder of the evening. ughhghhghghg.
On a happier note.. last night was hilarious. "What would you do if I hit your little guy?" - dan goede. Honestly though, who's surprised at that? Stymus.. I'm sorry that we have to see each other every day for the rest of our lives. HAHAHA. I love you. Let's just say that I had the best time I've ever had in a hot tub last night. Completely sober. Good frickin times.
I love you Katie Fox. <<3