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well what a month it has been...AHHHH somewhat sums it up!! I feel so betrayed and hurt that someone I love more than anything can just toss everything that we have built away at a time in my life when I need him the most...selfish selfish selfish!! I hate boys!! He will never find anyone better than me, someone who loves him unconditionally and would go to the ends of the earth for him...no one will ever be able to fill my place!!
I don't understand where my life is going right now...i feel soooo sooo sooo alone!! The anniversary of Teddy's death is this Sunday and I have never felt so much hurt in my heart. It was nice last year having Matt there to support me and take away some of my pain, but this year I have to relive this all alone. I don't know what to do...
Let's look at the dilemma's in my life right now...
I am all alone and have no one to express myself to
I am single and don't have a prom date
And the biggest dilemma of all
Where am I going to college?
UF or USF?
I can't make up my mind...they would both work out wonderfully, but I don't want to pick the wrong one!! Part of me just wants to get away from this town and all of the hurt that I have dealt with while living here. Another part wants to sit somewhere and never leave...
I find myself sitting alone and praying that somehow my life will go back to normal, but I fear that it will not. I have lost not only one person, but two in the course of a year...two of my best friends...
I don't understand anything right now and I have so much resentment toward god. I don't understand why all of this has to happen to me?? How many students have to go through what I have gone through and still be expected to reach the top of the world's highest mountain?!?!?
Any suggestions for PROM Dates??? Help me out??? I'm just a lil lost right now!!
"I love you more than a home-run with the bases loaded!!"
"Everyday it leads into tomorrow and tomorrow brings one less day without you, but don't wait up just leave the light on cause all the roads that I might take will all one day lead back to you..."
I don't understand where my life is going right now...i feel soooo sooo sooo alone!! The anniversary of Teddy's death is this Sunday and I have never felt so much hurt in my heart. It was nice last year having Matt there to support me and take away some of my pain, but this year I have to relive this all alone. I don't know what to do...
Let's look at the dilemma's in my life right now...
I am all alone and have no one to express myself to
I am single and don't have a prom date
And the biggest dilemma of all
Where am I going to college?
UF or USF?
I can't make up my mind...they would both work out wonderfully, but I don't want to pick the wrong one!! Part of me just wants to get away from this town and all of the hurt that I have dealt with while living here. Another part wants to sit somewhere and never leave...
I find myself sitting alone and praying that somehow my life will go back to normal, but I fear that it will not. I have lost not only one person, but two in the course of a year...two of my best friends...
I don't understand anything right now and I have so much resentment toward god. I don't understand why all of this has to happen to me?? How many students have to go through what I have gone through and still be expected to reach the top of the world's highest mountain?!?!?
Any suggestions for PROM Dates??? Help me out??? I'm just a lil lost right now!!
"I love you more than a home-run with the bases loaded!!"
"Everyday it leads into tomorrow and tomorrow brings one less day without you, but don't wait up just leave the light on cause all the roads that I might take will all one day lead back to you..."