{-112} A better end than I thought.
Ups and downs. I hate the fact that every day, it's ups and downs. But this time around, at least, I hope no one went to bed angry. Livio's company was wonderful extremely welcome.
Thanks to an unexpected conversation, I'm going to give something a shot. I feel like this is going to blow up in my face, because I'm no good at doing this, either, but... unh. This is going to suck.
Vash? Whenever you stop drinking yourself into the floorboards and when my hangover headache goes away from the painkillers kicking in, I'd like to speak with you. Wolfwood, too, but screaming at him's more productive.
H-Hey, Rem? You free?
{Private//not unhackable, but not easy, stupid Meryl}
This is too hard. Livio coming back, problems with Vash, and I feel so distanced from everyone. I recognize this is the natural progression of things; people grow up, people grow apart, but is this really the place for that to be happening? Have I grown so accepting of my living here that I'm able to do this? Growing away from some, growing closer to others. I don't want to do it, but it's happening.
What's going to happen if this business endeavor becomes successful? I'm too business-oriented; I'll become absorbed in my work and I'll... I'll end up losing them all, won't I? They have their things. I have mine. Or will. Maybe. Either way, even if Vash and Wolfwood, or any of the others are involved, and I see them every day, I'll grow away from them.
Thank God I invest well, by the way. ... As though money's supposed to make anything better, Meryl. God, you're an idiot. No wonder you're in this situation.
Oh my Jesus, why am I still awake? ...oh, that's why. Two days, now.
Thanks to an unexpected conversation, I'm going to give something a shot. I feel like this is going to blow up in my face, because I'm no good at doing this, either, but... unh. This is going to suck.
Vash? Whenever you stop drinking yourself into the floorboards and when my hangover headache goes away from the painkillers kicking in, I'd like to speak with you. Wolfwood, too, but screaming at him's more productive.
H-Hey, Rem? You free?
{Private//not unhackable, but not easy, stupid Meryl}
This is too hard. Livio coming back, problems with Vash, and I feel so distanced from everyone. I recognize this is the natural progression of things; people grow up, people grow apart, but is this really the place for that to be happening? Have I grown so accepting of my living here that I'm able to do this? Growing away from some, growing closer to others. I don't want to do it, but it's happening.
What's going to happen if this business endeavor becomes successful? I'm too business-oriented; I'll become absorbed in my work and I'll... I'll end up losing them all, won't I? They have their things. I have mine. Or will. Maybe. Either way, even if Vash and Wolfwood, or any of the others are involved, and I see them every day, I'll grow away from them.
Thank God I invest well, by the way. ... As though money's supposed to make anything better, Meryl. God, you're an idiot. No wonder you're in this situation.
Oh my Jesus, why am I still awake? ...oh, that's why. Two days, now.