Nothing from the guy... I think I'm giving up on him. He'll just have to rue the fact that he didn't collect on his car... ho hum? Meanwhile, Granny's in critical condition here, so who knows when I'll be home next; Japan's off in any case, which I'm ok with. So, oy. I was thinking of Shirley for a bit today; she was really cool! I dunno; the shit happening here is just heavy, made slightly more complex by the fact that my mom's uncle just died also (which the Steinberg side is dealing ok with), and my mom's cousin has some sort of cancer. My grandparents have been trying their damndest to take Micah and I away from the hospital, which feels, not unsurprisingly, infantilizing and just not what I want. The whole battle I go through about trying not to like the Genslers more than the Steinbergs is being put to the test... but that's an entirely different issue. I gues maybe infantilization is just one of those core Issues I've got to face with my family some day... I'd have no problem being one of "the kids" if I also felt like I could speak to people on a more human level. Again with Gensler/Steinberg see-saw, with Genslers being more inclusive, and Steinbergs being less.
Damn. I'm really sorry. If you feel like talking/venting, you know my cell phone number--although I'll be in Sweden between Friday and next Sunday (13-22) and probably unreachable.
Yeah, I'm sorry to hear about the badness, as well. {hug}. Especially since it's really annoying how sad things like mortality get mixed up with complicated family relationship issues. :(. May everything be well!
Meanwhile, Granny's in critical condition here, so who knows when I'll be home next; Japan's off in any case, which I'm ok with.
So, oy. I was thinking of Shirley for a bit today; she was really cool! I dunno; the shit happening here is just heavy, made slightly more complex by the fact that my mom's uncle just died also (which the Steinberg side is dealing ok with), and my mom's cousin has some sort of cancer. My grandparents have been trying their damndest to take Micah and I away from the hospital, which feels, not unsurprisingly, infantilizing and just not what I want. The whole battle I go through about trying not to like the Genslers more than the Steinbergs is being put to the test... but that's an entirely different issue. I gues maybe infantilization is just one of those core Issues I've got to face with my family some day... I'd have no problem being one of "the kids" if I also felt like I could speak to people on a more human level. Again with Gensler/Steinberg see-saw, with Genslers being more inclusive, and Steinbergs being less.
Ok, enough of this.
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