LOTR::Haldir/Legolas::NC-17::Lost Part 11

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Title: Lost

Author: dejectedmadness

Rating: NC-17

Pairing: Legolas/Haldir

Disclaimer: We do not own these characters, we simply made up stories because we liked them so much.

Summary: Legolas gets sucked into the real world and can't get back so he takes a job as an assassin where he can put his skills with range weapons to good use. After fifty years stranded here he takes a job to assassinate a European figurehead and comes face to face with someone he thought he lost many years ago.



Chapter 10: Reunification

I awakened in only a few short hours, it was not past noon when I opened my eyes, and I was certain the sun had been rising when I fell asleep. I could not have gotten more than six hours of sleep, but I had survived on much less. I opened my eyes and rubbed the grime from my face that had collected while I slept. My eyes surveyed the room, and I vaguely registered that there was a window open and the light was pouring in.

I sat up in the bed and rested back against the pillows and the headboard. Slowly things became more focused. I remembered a time when I would have surely noticed everything in the room, anything that might have been different, and even things outside before I’d even opened my eyes. Now, it took me a moment to remember that the window had not been open last night and that there was a faint smell here that was different from usual and even different from the scent of Timmy and his stale cigars.

I reached beneath the pillow and pulled out my knife. I stood and approached the bathroom door. There was someone behind it. The light was on. I felt like a fool for not having noticed this and for not having realized that someone had come into my room while I slept. I stood next to the closed door and held the knife up next to my face, as I remained hidden.

There was a soft sound at the door as if made by running water, which, it being the bathroom and all, I assumed it was, and then the doorknob turned slowly and the door opened soundlessly. Before the being behind the door could realize that there was no one in the bed I pushed the door open wider and caught the intruder under the arms. I forced him face first into the wall while holding the knife to his throat. He made a noise as if to protest but the knife caused his voice to catch in his throat.

I turned the light on with my elbow and sighed with relief. It was only Haldir. “You should know better my friend.” I backed away and let him step back from the wall.

He rubbed his arms and briefly brought his hand to his neck. “I apologize,” he muttered to me, “I did not wish to wake you or to remain outside long enough for prying eyes to see.” His gaze dropped lower and focused on my body, still bare from having slept that way. I ignored his stare.

“So you climbed through my window?” I asked. “You could have called first and I would have been up and ready to usher you inside.” I laughed at him, and he brought his eyes to my own as tactfully as he could manage.

He nodded and turned around reddening slightly. “I apologize again. I thought you might still carry your elvish intuition and sense my coming into the room, apparently not. However, I was rather quiet.”

I smiled wryly, “You were always good at that.”

Flash!

I opened my eyes only to find a hand over my mouth and stared into his eyes. He put a finger to his lips before he brought them down on mine. I broke away after the initial surprise and turned my head to look at the rest of the Fellowship, all laying there peacefully asleep. I sat up and was about to speak when he put his finger to his lips again. I closed my mouth and he stood, beckoning me to follow.

Flash!

“Why are you here?” I asked. He turned back around to face me, and I stood there as casually as possible, being unclothed.

He, very indiscreetly, looked at the lower half of my naked body. I smirked at him. “Surely you are still comfortable being in the same room as a naked person, Haldir, even after all these years.”

He smiled. “It has been… some time my friend.” He tried to look nonchalant, but I could tell I made him slightly nervous. Perhaps last night I was mistaken. I began to think that maybe he did not still want my love, if he was so uncomfortable with my nudity.

I grew modest and went back out into the bedroom to gather some clothes to put on. I chose a plain black muscle shirt that fit tightly and a pair of loose, faded jeans. I chose another pair of boxers instead of the ones that were still on the floor with my jeans from yesterday and went back into the bathroom. I did not close the door but turned on the shower and asked my question again.

“Oh!” He looked a little surprised, perhaps surprised that he had not stated his business immediately, and I thought I saw his face flush. I turned on the shower and tossed my clothes on the floor of the bathroom to put on when I got out. He looked a little confused by my turning on the shower so I explained that I would still listen to him, my elvish hearing was still as advanced as before, and I could easily make out his words over the thundering of the water.

“Well,” he began, “I was coming to let you know about the headway I made last night.”

I nodded and stepped into the steaming water. He continued speaking.

“I found a few questionable bars and such downtown and talked to a few people inside-“

“Not dressed like usual, I hope.” I muttered through the water as I relished the feeling of it coursing down my naked skin. I let out a low moan, and I ran my fingers through my hair. Being clean always felt good. A shower in this world was something I would never take for granted.

“No,” I heard him say, “I dressed a little less conspicuously to be in such a place. Anyhow, I found out that there is a meeting for as many lowlifes and thugs as will show up at an address downtown in a couple days. I am assuming that there is a reason, but I did not find anything else out last night. I do have a few theories….” He paused as if waiting for me to tell him to elaborate.

“Clearly,” I muttered as I stepped out into the colder room and wrapped a towel around myself, “you were not as inconspicuous as you might have believed because I do not need theories to know what is going on.” I was stretching the truth a little, but I knew that there was a very large possibility that my ‘theory’ was correct.

Haldir looked a little peeved. “You went out last night.” It was not a question.

“Now, love, you didn’t expect me to be your bitch, did you? You should have known that once I found out about Melkor I would do my part. I am not one to take orders, not even from a Captain.” I smiled smugly and felt a little guilty after the look he gave me. “Yes, I went out. I found out more than you, my love, also.”

Haldir was waiting for me to continue, but I did not. Finally he said, “Well what did you find out, then?”

“I see your impatience has not changed.” I winked at him. “Melkor is planning an attack.”

“Then he does not realise that the barrier is weakening, he does not realize he is able to return to Middle Earth.” Haldir stated, unsure whether to be happy that he would not head back to Middle Earth, or discouraged because that meant it would take that much longer to find him.

I was confused for a moment, then I realized he thought I meant he was planning an attack here. “No he is going to raid Middle Earth. He is gathering an army of fugitives and lowlifes to help him attack our home. He is going to bring them all back to Middle Earth with him when he goes. There will be no stopping him then! He will bring weapons of mass destruction. In Middle Earth they do not yet have guns and explosives. He will ruin them and barely lift a finger!”

Haldir seemed surprised. His mouth dropped, and he swallowed hard when he thought of the consequences. He seemed to be thinking, but I continued where my train of thought lead me the previous night.

“Even if there are less than a thousand people who join up with him, with that kind of artillery we will not be able to stop him alone. He will mangle our world. There will be nothing left! If we are to waltz in that warehouse on the set date and come face to face with Melkor, he can easily have us blown to pieces. What are two people to do to stop an army and a war? We either need to get him before then, or we need to somehow get word back to Middle Earth so they can catch them before they do any harm. Surely the elders know where Melkor was hiding before. When he returns, they can catch him there!” My ideas were good, and I knew that, but Haldir wanted to think for a moment. He held up his hand to signal me to stop talking, and he pondered for a moment.

“I don’t think that even if Melkor returned to his ‘hiding place’, as you so aptly put it, the elves and men of Middle Earth could overpower all of them with the weapons they will be wielding.” He sighed. “We are going to have a hard time of this. Even if we destroy Melkor, the men of this world will still be there. They will wreak havoc across Middle Earth and we will be powerless to stop them. We need to catch him before he can get there. We need to stop this before it starts.”

“How are we going to do that when we don’t know who Melkor is or where he is, or anything? We know nothing!” I protested. “Last night I probably had as little luck as you did in discerning the name Melkor is assuming and that means that there is likely no one who knows it. I will look again, but I do not expect to find anything. We need a plan.”

Haldir sighed. “There is no plan, how can there be? We have nothing to work with, no information. It seems rather hopeless, if you ask me.”

My mouth dropped open. I looked at him with complete wonder and awe. This was not something I would expect him to say. He was the one who brought the army of elves to Helm’s Deep, he was the one who encouraged me to move on, to never give up. He was the only person who would go to the ends of the earth if only to prove that he could. He was not the kind of person to lose hope. “Do not say that, Haldir.” I breathed. “I cannot hear it from you.” I turned away from him and put my hand to my eyes to rub them.

His expression was now the one to become surprised. “What do you mean?”

I sighed. ”Have we both changed so much? I am a murderer and betray even the simplest request,” I muttered referring to my excursion last night against Haldir’s wishes, “and you have given up hope, you have taken to drinking like a fish, and you seem to want to control me and everyone around you.”

Haldir was taken aback. I continued to speak. “I want things to be like they were. I wish this had never happened. I wish everything were simpler.” I suddenly felt as hopeless as Haldir sounded. “I don’t want to have to worry about how impossible things are, evil beings trying to destroy our world, or whether you still love me. I want to worry about whether it is going to rain, how I am going to catch my dinner, and what time the sun sets, and I can no longer walk through the woods for fear of unseen perils.” I hated this world. “I hate this world. I did not realize how much I hated it until I saw you again and remembered what life could be.”

Haldir looked like his heart was breaking. He reached out for me, but I did not let him touch me or comfort me. I turned and paced across the room to the open window.

“This, “I gestured to the world outside of the window, “is not the world I know and love. I never wanted this. I don’t think that I wanted this even when I agreed to come. I didn’t want this for the first years I was here, and I do not want it now.” I knew I was getting angry, but that was only to hide the sadness that was buried inside of me. I would not weep in front of him, not again, especially since I didn’t know, now, if he still loved me, still wanted me around. I did not know if he even liked me. No, I would not cry before him. “I would have stayed with you until the end of time if I knew this is what it would have been like. Now, I don’t know if I haven’t thrown away the one thing that meant something to me. I don’t know if you even give a damn.” I would not have blamed him if he hated me, if he never wanted to see me or be with me. If he wanted to leave me here for all of eternity, I would not hold him to me. I knew what a fool and a disgrace I was.

I clenched and relaxed my fist a number of times before I realized he was standing there beside me. “Jack… Legolas… how can you think that? How can you think that I would not want you, no matter what has happened to change you? I love you, I loved you since the moment I met you, and I will never stop. I cannot stop.” His voice caught in his throat, but I still did not turn to face him. “Can you not believe me? Can you not feel how much I love you? Know you are loved, liramaer, and believe that since I have found you, I will never let you go again.”

I felt him forcing his feelings through the bond we shared. I felt a mixture of pain and love, but mostly, I felt desire, pure, unbridled desire. Blood seemed to suddenly flood through my veins with more vigour, and I knew now that he wanted to love me, he wanted to take me and make me his like I made him mine so many decades past. He was trying to hold back his passion, trying to hide it from me and even from himself. He felt he needed to focus on the task at hand but he did not believe he could unless he pushed his feelings for me deep down inside of him.

I finally turned to face him, and I looked into his tear-filled eyes. “Melethnin, I love you dearly, can you not see it, can you not feel it?”

I felt so overwhelmed, suddenly, that though I was pushing the sadness back, I felt tears begin to well in my own eyes. I turned away again and took a deep breath to sturdy myself. “But we have more important things than our personal lives to discuss right now. That is another thing I feel from you. You wish to love me, but it is getting in the way of our search for Melkor.” I felt a supreme sadness emanating from him. I looked out the window again to the busses and cars driving through the streets, the people walking around, going about their daily business. No one knew that they faced peril. “Do not worry, Haldir. I understand. If we do not solve this problem immediately, we may never, and then we will have no more time for love. We will not survive if we do not stop him.”

Haldir stepped up behind me. “I have been such a fool!” He exhaled into my ear. “You were right when you said we changed; this world has affected us both negatively. You are incredibly pessimistic, and I am doing nothing to ease your pain, I am only pushing you farther away.” I felt his hand on my right shoulder, and his chin rested on my left. “I do not want to push you away. I never want to push you away. I want to be so close to you we cannot breathe, we cannot focus. I want never to leave you again.”

I smiled at his words and the feel of his breath on my cheek. I noticed that his hand was caressing the fabric of my shirt. I could feel the pulse in his fingers racing, and his breathing was laboured. My heart began to speed to match his. How I missed his touch. I missed his lips. I missed the scent of him on my clothes and all over me when I awakened next to him. I wanted to be with him so badly. I wanted for him to love me. I knew he wanted to, I knew he wanted to take me like I had taken him so many times. I had had enough of controlling people, I had enough of being dominant and forceful. I wanted him to take his turn. I wanted to submit to him.

I closed my eyes as I felt his fingers trace the collar of my shirt over my arms and my neck. I caught my breath in my throat when he stopped. I could feel my face flush as I remembered that last night we had together. He begged me not to go, and I told him that I would never leave him for good. Not if the Valar begged and pleaded, would I leave him. I remembered him whispering in my ears things he would like to do to me. He begged me to let him have control for just one moment. But I told him that it was all about him that night. I tortured and teased him until he thrashed about, and then I tied him down to do it some more. In the end, we were together all night, and all night I pleasured him if only to hear him coo my name, beg me to take him, and moan with need.

When I stopped my thoughts of that day so many years passed, I began to listen to him and feel his actions more. I heard him breathe hard, and I felt his hands touching me so softly, as though he thought I might break.

I did not realize he had spoken at first, and then I listened as he repeated my name. “Legolas, I do not want to wait until we have all the time in the world, just in case we never get that time. I want to spend my life with you starting right now.” The desire pulsing through the strange connection we had was stronger and more urgent. I felt his hands touching my skin harder, trying to remain delicate, but he could not force himself to hold back. I felt, though the thick layers of fabric we both wore, his hardness pushing against me, telling me without words exactly what he wanted.

I braced myself on the windowsill; I had to hold myself up because my knees were becoming weak and my head lighter as blood began to pool in my groin. I let out a shaky breath when he firmly rested both hands on my stomach, and I dropped my head to my chest. It lulled to one side. Haldir pulled me away from the window, and I turned to face him. His eyes were dilated and his face flushed. I backed against the wall as he advanced on me. He held my waist now, and when we were mere inches apart, his lips finally descended on mine. This set a fire burning in me. I wanted to shove him backward onto the bed, but I remained passive and let him do as he wished.

He kissed me so gently at first it was torture, but it only lasted a moment before he forced his tongue between my lips and teeth to battle with my own. He sucked on my tongue playfully and nipped at it with his teeth. He then dragged his tongue across my lips, and I could not help but moan with passion as my organ twitched in response. Haldir moaned when he felt the movement against his leg and pressed his lips harder into mine.

We finally parted only for him to move to kiss my cheek and then my throat. I felt a growl building, rumbling deep inside me. I wanted this. I wanted more than this. I suppressed it and lifted my chin so he would have better access to my neck and collarbone. I felt my legs weakening but did not realize it until I was about to fall. I leaned a little harder against the wall and sat somewhat on the windowsill.

“H…Haldir.” I whispered. “You’re killing me.” It was a subtle plea for more. It was too soft, too gentle. I wanted him to show me the passion I knew he held inside.

He pulled away for a moment, and the loss of contact caused me to cry out, and my eyes flew open. Haldir smiled at me and held a finger to my lips when I was about to ask what he was doing. He brought his lips to my ear.

“I thought you wanted this.” He was right, I did. “It is this or nothing at all.” His smile was devious and menacing, but I only caught it out of the corner of my eye before he moved his lips to the tip of my pointed and very sensitive ear and began to kiss, nibble, lick and suck on it.

My knees could not take it, and I began to sink to the floor. Haldir tried to hold me up but ended up coming down with me. We pushed away from the wall, and he lay on top of me, holding me there for his own intents and purposes. I pushed my head forward to catch his lips with mine but he was too fast for me and backed away before I could kiss him.

“My dear Legolas, you should know better. The more you beg and try for control, the longer this will take.” He smiled mischievously and dragged his tongue from my earlobe to the tip of my ear causing my eyes to roll back in my head and my hips to buck involuntarily. “Will you be good now, my sweet?” I nodded and writhed beneath him, wishing for only more contact between us.

Haldir’s hands carefully pulled my shirt up and over my head without his eyes as he moved his tongue from my ears to my nipples, licking, sucking and biting them playfully until I was arched beneath him. I struggled to hold myself at bay and keep my arms by my side. He moved his lips lower until his tongue touched my belly button. He flicked his tongue in the hole there, and I swallowed hard, my member straining for release from the pants I wore, which were beginning to seem too tight. His hands delved lower, undoing the button on my pants. He brought his mouth to my fly and took the metal zipper in between his teeth pulling it down as I watched. That must have been the most erotic thing I had ever seen.

“Haldir, my love, surely you don’t wish to torture me. Aaahh!” He bit me. There was a red splotch on my skin where he had clamped his teeth down. I almost sat up, but then his tongue began to do amazing things to that tender area at the waistline of my pants. He backed away a little for moment, and I used this time to catch my breath. But almost immediately I felt the heat of his breath through my shorts and my organ strove for the warm place from whence that air came. Catching my breath was not an option, now.

“Legolas, my heart, how do you feel?” I panted hard and writhed on the floor though his hands had somehow caught my wrists and were holding them so they could not move.

I opened my eyes and looked at him pleadingly. “Never better.” I muttered defiantly, my eyes sparkling, crying out just after the words were out of my mouth as he caught my nipple in between his teeth again. He bit down on it and then quickly licked the hard nub and surrounded it with his lips to suck on it. I closed my eyes again, though I barely realized it because I could not see anyway. There were lights flashing in my eyes each time he did something incredibly pleasurable. It seemed all I saw were white lights.

I let my tongue flick out and dampen my lips, which were now red and swollen with desire. Perspiration shined on my skin, though Haldir’s was dry, despite the heat of his flesh. I whipped my head left and right, willing myself not to beg for more. The less I begged the less torture I would have to endure before….

I opened my eyes thinking how stupid that was, “Haldir, I want you, please take me, I need to feel you everywhere.”

The other elf smiled and pinched my neglected nipple between his fingers. “You are only making it harder for yourself with your pleas.” I let my tongue flick out and lick my lips again.

“At least let us move to the bed,” I said, hoping to give myself some time to catch my breath. “It is uncomfortable here on the floor, and filthy.”

“Since when do you care about dirt, Legolas?” He stood, and I momentarily missed the contact between us, but then I remembered the purpose of this. He held out a hand for me to take and I took it to help me stand.

However, he wasted no time in returning me to my position of submission. I was lying on the bed again in no time flat, and his body firmly pinned mine down. I did not want to struggle against him, but the urge inside me to do so was rising rapidly. I bucked my hips gently against his bringing our groins in closer contact. This made Haldir moan, not having expected the action. I used this moment to throw him over onto his back where I closely followed him to straddle his waist. I ripped the buttons off his shirt in my haste to open it and reveal his godlike body to my deprived eyes.

I did not pause long, however, and brought my lips down on his marble-like skin. It was still as hard as it had always been; his vacation here on Earth had not softened him at all. It was also blazingly hot. I took one pebble-hard nipple into my mouth and raked my teeth gently across the hard skin there. He moaned and thrust his hips forward at me. However, my head being down there gave him sufficient access to my ear and he took it between his teeth. I ceased my ministrations involuntarily as he teased my ear. I swallowed hard and felt my hardness once again strive to free itself from the dreary confines of my pants.

Haldir quickly took note of my lack of movement, took me by my shoulders and spun me over on the large bed. I teetered on the edge of it until he followed me and pulled me back into the middle to take his place atop me as I had been on him.

“You are quick to temper, my love, but it will serve you no purpose in the end.” He kissed my ear again, probably to keep me from moving, and it worked. I halted in the movement of bringing my arms to his neck to pull him closer and he took this opportunity to pull them above my head and with a quick movement I did not have the senses to register, he locked them at the headboard with something. I looked up, startled, and I noticed a piece of leather was holding me there. He had used his belt! I looked at him with surprised eyes and he smiled at me mischievously. “You are mine, my love, to do with as I please. There is no use for you to try to be anything but my toy, now.”

I reefed on the binds as hard as possible and looked at them again. There were strange designs and an elaborate buckle. It was the one he wore in Lothlorien for his duties as March Warden. It was stronger than steel but as flexible as rope. I would not escape these binds.

When I returned my eyes to my lover it was only in time to see his face approaching my abdomen. His lips contacted with my skin and renewed the fire I’d nearly forgotten lay in my loins as I had regarded my bindings. His lips slid effortlessly across my skin and tickled the hair that lead from my belly button into my pants. He gently blew air across that wet skin and I shivered with desire.

He moved his hot lips down lower and pulled my jeans down and threw them on the floor with his hands, newly freed from having to hold me in my place. He tickled my groin with his lips and mouthed me through my boxers. I could do nothing but moan and try to thrust my hips at him, but that was nearly impossible seeing as he was laying on me and my arms gave no leverage. I felt the heat fill me again and let a low growl escape my throat. I felt Haldir’s lips curl into a smile while he continued his ministrations, and when he noted that the quickening of my breath and the tensing of my muscles that proved I was reaching culmination, he stopped and sat back on his heels watching my eyes widen to the size of small saucers and my attempts to free myself from my ensnarement.

He lay on his side next to me, far enough that I did not feel his skin on mine, but close enough that I could feel his breath on my skin, which aroused me more. “Do you remember those times so long ago when you did this to me. You would bring me to my climax and back away until I nearly went soft again before continuing with the pleasure. You thought it brought great pleasure, and you were right, but now you can endure the same torture as I did so long ago.”

“Haldir,” I spoke softly, eyes rolling back in my head and my heart still racing, “it has been many years since then. It has been long enough that, though this is fun,” I heard him snort a laugh, “would you not much rather take me, let me take you, anything else. Let us have our fun and release ourselves. It has been too long, my friend. We can spend the whole day finding pleasure in completion, relaxing, and beginning again.” I saw he was pondering this and letting my words lull him into consideration. “You cannot tell me that you do not wish to feel my hands on your skin, my lips, my body pressed against yours. We can both have satisfaction my love.” Haldir was panting with only the thought of this in his mind. “The love you give is to serve one when the other is to be neglected. I served you so many times, it is wonderful to have you want to return the favour, but Haldir, would you not rather-”

I was cut off with his lips on mine. He ripped my shorts down and took my hardness into his hand. I cried out in delight and he began to move his fist up and down on my hard flesh. My voice left me with my mind and I relaxed back into his workings. I did not notice at first that his free hand had released me until I was undoing his trousers. My hand was suddenly and unexpectedly on his hardness, and I suddenly wanted to have him again. This time the urge was not so quickly suppressed.

I pushed him onto his back and took off his pants to toss them on the floor. I did not care that he let go of my skin, I only noticed that he was staring at me with such desire in his eyes that I new nought but that I wanted to make his scream my name.

I kissed the tip of his hardness and lapped at the glistening of silver droplets that sat there. I dragged my tongue up his length and finally put my lips around his hard desire. His crying out was only a signal for me to continue what I was doing. I brought it all the way into my mouth, though I had to fight against the reflexive gagging that was almost forced from me, and instead I constricted my throat around his considerable elfhood. I massaged the underside of his hardness with my tongue and sucked on it hard. In the back on my throat I began to make a low humming noise, which caused Haldir more pleasure in the past and did not disappoint now, either.

“My love, I wanted you so much, I want you so much. Aaahh!” I dragged my teeth a little when I pulled back; this always had cause Haldir pleasure, too. I moved my hand to his chest and took one nipple in between my fingers. I squeezed it and pulled at it before gently rubbing it to erectness. Haldir was writhing beneath my touch now. He moved his hand to the back of my head, likely without realizing, and was silently urging me on.

I pulled away then, and though he cried out in distress, I quickly moved to his side and kissed his lips. “Shall we spend our day together, then?”

He turned me over on my back again and kissed my lips with fervour. I kissed him back just as intensely and when he pulled away I was disappointed and tried to follow his lips as they left. “Legolas, I need you now. Please, Legolas, take me.”

I sat up and kissed him fiercely. “What happened to you wanting control?” I did not wait for him to answer before I pushed him back on the bed and pressed my lips against his furiously. I pressed my fingers into his skin to hold myself back when all he wanted was to pull me closer. I had to take my lips from his to tell him to be patient. “I do not wish to hurt you, my love.” He looked puzzled for a moment. “I did not expect to be making love to you, I have nothing to… ease my way in.” I smiled and Haldir nodded his acknowledgement. I bent to kiss him again.

“Soap.” I stopped my lips before they touched his. My eyes grazed over him in confusion. “Shampoo, soap, conditioner, anything. My love, just hurry, please?” I groaned at the sound of his pleas. It made me crave him that much more to know he desired me so. I sat back and looked at him before I stood and quickly moved to the bathroom.

I threw open cabinets looking for moisturizer, it would be better than shampoo. At last I found some beneath the sink with other extras for the room.

I hurried back into the other room. I had to stop in my tracks when I saw the sight before me. Haldir was sprawled across the bed in debauchery, skin flushed and his erection easily overcoming gravity. The light that poured in through the window covered him, casting a golden hue onto his skin. I moaned with anticipation as I sauntered over to where he lay.

“You do not know, my heart, how much I have missed you. “ I breathed.

“About as much as I missed you, I assume.” I shook my head at his reply.

“I missed you to the point of wanting to die without you.” I bent and pressed my lips to him gently and he sighed and relaxed back onto the bed. I climbed on top of him and rested my hand on his chest while fumbling with only one hand to open the bottle of cream. It was cold to the touch so I let my hand warm it for a moment before I covered his hardness with it. He moaned at my touch and pressed himself harder into my hand.

With delicateness I removed my other hand from his chest and removed my lips from his. He looked at me strangely when I pressed the bottle into his hand.

“I have not been the only one to be deprived of a pleasure I much needed.” I smiled. “I have never felt the completeness of having you inside me. I need to feel that now.”

Haldir stopped breathing for a moment and then swallowed and nodded. “I….”

I shook my head at him, telling him not to speak. “I want only to be yours.” I rolled beside him and let him climb on top of me. He was only a little hesitant. At first it seemed he did not know what to do; he only kissed my lips and let his hand hover over my chest, then my groin. I pushed my hips up, introducing my organ to his hand. He wrapped his long, slender fingers around it, and I let another sigh escape me.

His length, being already coated with the moisturizer, did not need lubricant, but I still did. Haldir, having never done this before, was relying on his memory of what was done to him. However, I knew that he was probably delirious with pleasure in those other situations, so it might take a moment to remember and get used to the process.

It did take a moment for him to get his bearings, but he remembered, when he poured more cream into his hand, exactly where it was supposed to go. He spread it across my entrance and slicked his hand with it so that it would not be hard or painful for me to have him enter. He probed at my backside with one finger at first, pushing gently at the hole. I moaned in encouragement and he pushed it until it broke past the initial ring of muscle. I tensed up immediately; I knew I would, but it only took a moment for me to relax again. When I did he sheathed the rest of his finger inside of me. This was slightly discomforting to me, but I knew it would get better despite my inexperience with being on this end of the action.

After a moment of me getting used to it, he began to withdraw his finger and then pushed it back in again. This time he brushed the raised area inside me and I sucked in all the breath my body could hold as a flash of light passed my eyes and a moan of delight passed through my lips. This heartened Haldir, and he did it again. Each time he brushed past that spot inside me I was blinded and breathless. My entire body tensed with the pleasure; I could almost reach completion simply through this. However, I wanted this new experience. I had never done this; I’d always been on the giving end of this situation, not only with Haldir but also with other male lovers I had taken in my past. I only wanted to do this with one person, the only person I could ever trust to dominate me in this manner.

Haldir was satisfied that I was fairly used to this by now, and he grew the confidence to add another finger. It was the same as the first time, but since I was still buzzing with the pleasure of the single digit, it was not going to be quite so bad. My love was like a drug. He pushed the second finger in, and it did not take so long this time for me to get used to the feeling of him intruding like that. When I relaxed he began to move his fingers both together in and out of me, like before, but every now and then he would pause to scissor his fingers and stretch me for the third.

Haldir pushed that one in, finally, too, and I realized this must be hard and tedious for him; he was panting and still hard simply watching me writhe in this pleasure inflicted by him. I realized now that though this was pleasure, nothing could compete with how I would feel with his hardness intruding into me. I tossed my head back and forth, trying to tell him to pause a moment. I could not yet find my voice.

Haldir’s fingers stopped their movement. “You have prepared me enough, my love, and shown excellent resolve. I can wait no longer, and you, I am sure, are looking forward to moving on. I want you, Haldir, do not torture me more. I need you….”

I cried out when his fingers left me, but a moment later I felt his head at my entrance. I whimpered with anticipation, and I felt him pushing. It still hurt a little when he passed that ring of muscle at first, but when the shock passed and I relaxed again, Haldir continued moving and that was not so bad. It was nothing until he struck that sensitive area inside me for the first time, and I screamed with the shock and bliss of the action. When he knew how to move to hit that raised area inside me, he did not miss again.

I pulled him closer. He took my hardness into his own hand and began to pump me equal to the rhythm we had set. I could not form coherent speech. If I could I would have told him never to stop. I finally opened my eyes, not knowing when I shut them, and my first sight was Haldir’s face. His expression was one of complete ecstasy and simply seeing it made me want him more. I lifted my lips to his and kissed him. He kissed me hard and quick but then moved his lips lower to my neck and began to bite and suck and lick me there. Then he moved to my ears nibbling on them so I cried out more. He did not miss a movement, and I met his every thrust, pushing him farther into me, harder.

“Haldir! Melethron! Amin mela lle! Aaahh!” My muscles contracted, and I squeezed his organ inside me like a vice. My back arched as I met the end and spilled over his hand. Haldir could not hold on when there was such pressure on his hard organ; my orgasm sent him over the edge, and I felt him fill me with his seed.

Haldir collapsed on my chest and lay there breathing heavily for a moment. He was breathless and speechless, as was I. I carefully wiped my semen off my stomach with the bed sheets and settled my head into the pillow in relaxation, closing my eyes. When I opened them again I was face to face with the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. I smiled at him and he at me, with a twinkle in his eye. Through our connection I felt his happiness. I only wanted to make him feel that happy for the rest of his life and for the rest of mine.

I moved over to him and rested my head on his chest, his strong, gorgeous chest. His arm wrapped around me and he kissed my head. “Legolas,” he whispered, “amin mela lle. Never leave me again, my heart.”

“I never will.”