*sniffle sniffle*
MAYBE now that i'm actually kinda in the right state of mind i can say whats been going on..
i think i already talked about friday.
SAturday::came home, did notta, then Kitten, Stef, sarah came and got me, we went to jelly's. then all went and watched "Saw" it was a pretty trippy movie, pretty demented, but demented can be good... i was just like "whoa" the whole time, but i have my reasons as to why (not to mention liek i said the movie was just insane) after this we all went over to Joe, Pat, and Jeff's house. most people were kicked out for obnoxiousness be we were allowed over, with some other select individuals. we chille dunitl like 2-3 am over there. Jeff read me a story and talked to me about my sister and such. i got to see chris, which was cool, since i hadn't seen him in awhile, and some other people to.
ended up stayong at jellys.
Sunday:: went to church and btiched out the sunday school class for being ignorant lil bitches... i love being mean to fuck asses. EER i was a little crazy feeling still though. tried sleeping, woke up to fight with katie about dad's birthday. ended up going. waited at sara's.seriously, i just couldnt handle anything, everything made me wanna cry, i just exploded and fought with my sister and cried creid cried until like i went to bed last night. i feel bad, cause i seriously wanted to get along with katie, i just couldnt handle anything .i was out of control. i feel like she doesnt wanna hang out with me sometimes, i dunno, i never wanna be home, kinda....
Today: at SCc sang alanis morrisette in dark room with everyone, great times! then swan valley was shit.
after school i hung out with theresa,we went to the mall, my "headache medicene" amanda gave me made everything all better. w00t for pain relievers. stupid sick shanna.
then we went to the library. cute blue hair boy at library i mean WOWO! never seen him before, i ask myself why the fuck not?!?
then... ended up going to robert's.. and hung out with him, travis, then these two other guys ..alex and umm craig, a differnt craig, and of course theresa. they had a jam session. it was interesting. look who i was hanging out with. i havent been around robert and travis at the same time since i went out with travis...and yeah if u really knew me you would know why this is extremely awkward! it wasnt too bad though, except robert's personality changed a bit when travis arrived and well travis was just...himself. i think they were embarassed to play and or sing in front of me though. it was kinda...cute maybe sorta.
his house was cold, it made me more sick. i kept observing travis, what did i like about him?has he changed? do i still think he same way about him? hes cute to me still, even though he treated me like shit... hes still awkward around me...even though he said hed try not to be... he still looks at me the same way.. even though it hurts me so much, but flatters me soo much as well. hes still goofy joey, just there is more, that i didnt know at first. i wish i could absoultely say i have no feelings for him at all. i wish he never meant anything to me. compared to nick, he didnt really. but he still did, and im a stupid blind girl , still.... ill never get it.i put up with some shit, and ignore it... its funny we talk so past tense about stuff.
its like we never bring up about hw we went out. only once did we. well maybe twice. but id say something and hes be like yeah i remember that, or just about things that happened, and same for me, then wed smile, and thatd be that.
OK ILL SHUTUP NOW. stupid blabbering.
fuckign nose, fucking throat, i hate feelign sick.
ick
<3 shanna
i think i already talked about friday.
SAturday::came home, did notta, then Kitten, Stef, sarah came and got me, we went to jelly's. then all went and watched "Saw" it was a pretty trippy movie, pretty demented, but demented can be good... i was just like "whoa" the whole time, but i have my reasons as to why (not to mention liek i said the movie was just insane) after this we all went over to Joe, Pat, and Jeff's house. most people were kicked out for obnoxiousness be we were allowed over, with some other select individuals. we chille dunitl like 2-3 am over there. Jeff read me a story and talked to me about my sister and such. i got to see chris, which was cool, since i hadn't seen him in awhile, and some other people to.
ended up stayong at jellys.
Sunday:: went to church and btiched out the sunday school class for being ignorant lil bitches... i love being mean to fuck asses. EER i was a little crazy feeling still though. tried sleeping, woke up to fight with katie about dad's birthday. ended up going. waited at sara's.seriously, i just couldnt handle anything, everything made me wanna cry, i just exploded and fought with my sister and cried creid cried until like i went to bed last night. i feel bad, cause i seriously wanted to get along with katie, i just couldnt handle anything .i was out of control. i feel like she doesnt wanna hang out with me sometimes, i dunno, i never wanna be home, kinda....
Today: at SCc sang alanis morrisette in dark room with everyone, great times! then swan valley was shit.
after school i hung out with theresa,we went to the mall, my "headache medicene" amanda gave me made everything all better. w00t for pain relievers. stupid sick shanna.
then we went to the library. cute blue hair boy at library i mean WOWO! never seen him before, i ask myself why the fuck not?!?
then... ended up going to robert's.. and hung out with him, travis, then these two other guys ..alex and umm craig, a differnt craig, and of course theresa. they had a jam session. it was interesting. look who i was hanging out with. i havent been around robert and travis at the same time since i went out with travis...and yeah if u really knew me you would know why this is extremely awkward! it wasnt too bad though, except robert's personality changed a bit when travis arrived and well travis was just...himself. i think they were embarassed to play and or sing in front of me though. it was kinda...cute maybe sorta.
his house was cold, it made me more sick. i kept observing travis, what did i like about him?has he changed? do i still think he same way about him? hes cute to me still, even though he treated me like shit... hes still awkward around me...even though he said hed try not to be... he still looks at me the same way.. even though it hurts me so much, but flatters me soo much as well. hes still goofy joey, just there is more, that i didnt know at first. i wish i could absoultely say i have no feelings for him at all. i wish he never meant anything to me. compared to nick, he didnt really. but he still did, and im a stupid blind girl , still.... ill never get it.i put up with some shit, and ignore it... its funny we talk so past tense about stuff.
its like we never bring up about hw we went out. only once did we. well maybe twice. but id say something and hes be like yeah i remember that, or just about things that happened, and same for me, then wed smile, and thatd be that.
OK ILL SHUTUP NOW. stupid blabbering.
fuckign nose, fucking throat, i hate feelign sick.
ick
<3 shanna