Relief.
I usually dread taking pills but I couldn't be more grateful for the prescription strength pain-killers that are keeping my debilitating headaches at bay. Also, being able to keep liquids and most foods down is an absolute plus. So much so that, against my better judgment, I'm going to attempt to treat myself and a friend to some Thai for lunch tomorrow. I've been craving pad thai for the last few days for god knows what reason. As long as I listen to my stomach, which has been reduced to the size of a pea apparently, I should be fine.
Underneath everything else, behind each distraction I try to find for myself, there is this inescapable anxiety about what's to come. I wouldn't say it's dread exactly but with the upcoming doctor's appointments and array of drugs that are sure to follow I can't help but be nervous. I need to go back to college; I don't know what I'd do if I had to stay in this place for a semester or, god forbid, an entire year.
Either way, I'm thankful for the time I did have away in Willytown. It was gorgeous and I loved the fact that it rained every other day. I can't wait to go back. Also, after visiting the chaplain's house, the idea of renovating a church into a home is really appealing. I loved the openness and the amazing upstairs. The fact that the chaplain and his partner could decorate tastefully made their home even more enjoyable.
Underneath everything else, behind each distraction I try to find for myself, there is this inescapable anxiety about what's to come. I wouldn't say it's dread exactly but with the upcoming doctor's appointments and array of drugs that are sure to follow I can't help but be nervous. I need to go back to college; I don't know what I'd do if I had to stay in this place for a semester or, god forbid, an entire year.
Either way, I'm thankful for the time I did have away in Willytown. It was gorgeous and I loved the fact that it rained every other day. I can't wait to go back. Also, after visiting the chaplain's house, the idea of renovating a church into a home is really appealing. I loved the openness and the amazing upstairs. The fact that the chaplain and his partner could decorate tastefully made their home even more enjoyable.